Tuesday, November 01, 2011
I still remember what you told me.
After a long talk that night, you told me, you wanted to settle down with me.
But with this kind of lifestyle you are living in?
Going parties and mingle around with your guy friends?
Thats what you called ready to settle down?
Sadly enough, you basically didnt even keep to your words. Im so disappointed with you.
Someone whom i trust so much, whom i loved with all my life, betrayed my trust, my love, betrayed me.
You wanted freedom, i gave it to you. Why? because you put words into my mouth.
What did you stated about me? Basically, you told me that i controlled you? I didnt gave you much space to breathe?
For god sake, you are working, and you wanted to go mingle around with your guy friends after work? If you are not working the next day, i am fine with it. But you are fucking working in the morning?!
Being caring towards you , and all i got was being overprotected?!
What a shame. Shame on you Nurlin.
And soon, after that long talk, both agreed to understand each other's need and freedom
Infact, i gave you the freedom, just the same as risking my own life to the knife.
You dont know how much courage to do that didnt you?
And all you said is that, I DONT FUCKING UNDERSTAND YOU!?
You called me names, you looked down upon me.
Let me recap what had happened today.
You called me, you asked me in a very VERY nice manner.
I knew something issnt right.
Your tone of voice...
Well, you asked me, weather i have made any plans for us over the weekends,
I said, NOT YET.
And you happily told me that your guy friends are planning to go club.
There i am, with full courage, said carry on.
And what i was expecting was, you asking me along.
But NO!? you didnt. And i did asked you why, and the next minute, you were so pissed with me!?
You called me names, you hung up on me. You rejected my phonecalls?
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU!?
You wanted freedom, I GAVE YOU
you wanted to meet your Friends, I GAVE YOU
You wanted everything, I WILLINGLY GAVE YOU
AND WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME JUST ASKING YOU ONE FUCKING QUESTION!???!?!?!?!?
And you claimed, your guy friends are going with their scandals and sluts... well, that shows HOW GREAT YOUR FRIENDS ARE!
and you, being there alone, no one to take care of..
GREAT!?
FUCK YOU. Seriously. FUCK YOU!
After a long talk that night, you told me, you wanted to settle down with me.
But with this kind of lifestyle you are living in?
Going parties and mingle around with your guy friends?
Thats what you called ready to settle down?
Sadly enough, you basically didnt even keep to your words. Im so disappointed with you.
Someone whom i trust so much, whom i loved with all my life, betrayed my trust, my love, betrayed me.
You wanted freedom, i gave it to you. Why? because you put words into my mouth.
What did you stated about me? Basically, you told me that i controlled you? I didnt gave you much space to breathe?
For god sake, you are working, and you wanted to go mingle around with your guy friends after work? If you are not working the next day, i am fine with it. But you are fucking working in the morning?!
Being caring towards you , and all i got was being overprotected?!
What a shame. Shame on you Nurlin.
And soon, after that long talk, both agreed to understand each other's need and freedom
Infact, i gave you the freedom, just the same as risking my own life to the knife.
You dont know how much courage to do that didnt you?
And all you said is that, I DONT FUCKING UNDERSTAND YOU!?
You called me names, you looked down upon me.
Let me recap what had happened today.
You called me, you asked me in a very VERY nice manner.
I knew something issnt right.
Your tone of voice...
Well, you asked me, weather i have made any plans for us over the weekends,
I said, NOT YET.
And you happily told me that your guy friends are planning to go club.
There i am, with full courage, said carry on.
And what i was expecting was, you asking me along.
But NO!? you didnt. And i did asked you why, and the next minute, you were so pissed with me!?
You called me names, you hung up on me. You rejected my phonecalls?
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU!?
You wanted freedom, I GAVE YOU
you wanted to meet your Friends, I GAVE YOU
You wanted everything, I WILLINGLY GAVE YOU
AND WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME JUST ASKING YOU ONE FUCKING QUESTION!???!?!?!?!?
And you claimed, your guy friends are going with their scandals and sluts... well, that shows HOW GREAT YOUR FRIENDS ARE!
and you, being there alone, no one to take care of..
GREAT!?
FUCK YOU. Seriously. FUCK YOU!
what we could have been, 9:31 PM.
