You're like a disease.

Monday, March 31, 2008 @ 12:11 AM

Okay. Today, the etp carnival peeps had the biggest group outing so far.
I had to plan it last minute because everyone kept asking me where are we going.
But nevertheless, the outing was great though.

We met up at whitesands and wait for both zul and sri to end work and join us.
After that, we head down to fareast to have our dinner. But when we reached there, the restaurant was close. And without any delays, we head to estellar to have our meals.

After which, we went for window shop in town and had some photography sessions near PS.
Soon, some of us left for home and some stayed to chill.
Went home around 9 plus and editted some pictures for posting up in websites.

The outing was a memoriable one and i shall cherish that moment. Eventhough some of us are nt working in etp, yet, should there be any outing organized, update us and we shall tag along.

I'll miss you guys.

Hans.

Sunday, March 30, 2008 @ 11:50 PM

@ 12:00 AM

My dad.

Posing!

Today is my last day of work.

Alot of memories just screened through my mind.

I Took alot of time at work today,

going to the various places in the themepark.

Just to recapped myself, what happened in those areas.

Working at escape really dosent feed me with regrets

Infact, what ii've always been looking forward to for work is their staffs.

My collegues are the best and will always remain the best in this fun working world.

All the best to those who are still there.

As for now, im moving on to a new chapter of life.

To a new Beginning.

Hans.

Saturday, March 29, 2008 @ 12:44 AM

Well, first and foremost.
I would like to highlight somethings in my post here.

Okay, 1st thing 1st, this is my blog. And you people can say whatever things you want. But if i got a problem with you, i would go to you personally and talk it all about.
2nd, doesn’t mean I wrote something negative, it must be you. I could be referring to some other people. So don’t take the chance to assume things and jump to conclusions aite?

And yes, this matter once happened just now. So hope to whoever it may concern, you do take note. No hard feelings.

Okay, today was a fun day with the LOVED ONES. Met up with the peeps at bugis junction and guess what!? The organizer himself was effing late for half an hour. Eurgh!
So, when he reached the meeting place, we then head down to the sheesha place.
Well, everyone was enjoying themselves and we had fun. Despite the hot and stuffy condition, we managed to mingle around and made new friends.

After the session, we head back to bugis to have our dinner. Amy, ezann, amalina and Dan went off 1st while the others went to chill at Marina Square. Dan soon tagged along after sending amalina home and we had some crap talks and picture takings.

Went home around 11.30 and reached at 12.30 am. It was fun and joyous outing ever. All craps and laughter with no arguments. Best!

And to Amy and ezann, happy 1mnth anni to both of you. Hope you enjoy the day with us though I seldom talk to you guys yeah!

More to come next month. For the cool people who are, of course, cool. Hah!

Pictures will be up next.

Friday, March 28, 2008 @ 11:25 AM

Okay, alot of things happened yesterday
I doubt that this post would be a long and dry one. But still, i need to update it.

1st in the morning, when i woke up, i logged into imesh chat.
About a minute later, a male person prompted me in a window conversation.
I called him Mr G.
Here's the conversation.

Mr G: Hie.....

Me: Hell-0

Mr G: Whats your name?

Me: Farhan. Yours?

Mr G: Just call me SK.

Ok, for a minute, i was curious bout his age, so, i viewed his profile. And guess what, he's a 31 year old malay dude living in pasir ris. Okay, its harmless to make friends with. So, we carried on with the convo.
But something struct my nerve in the balls, making me to shriek. Here it goes.

Mr G: are you open minded han?

Me: well, hell yeah! Whats up?

Mr G: Sure? erm, by looking at your pictures, actually, i admire you han...

Me: Ouh, Thank you.

*I was like "HOLY SHIT! Dont tell me its another prank or what."

And he goes,

Mr G: You know what i mean right?

Me: Okay, i know.

And he cuts whatever i was typing about

Mr G: Okay, im not straight and maybe, i would love to get to know you.

And in my mind was, "Oh great, a gay likes me. damnit."

And i replied,

Oh, okay, i wanna tell you that im straight and happily attached to a beautiful lady. Dont take it too hard, as i got alot of friends whom in the same situation as yours. :)

And he agreed.

A few moments after a long silence....

Mr G: Ok lah han, i gtg to work.
Anything msg me this number ******** okay?
Tata, take care. Muacks!

Okay, that was creepy. Seriously.
And it happened at 10 in the morning!
Oh god!

Okay, after that unspeakable incident, i took a bath and met up with yasin to go
to toys r us branch at forum for an interview there.
Soon when we reached, we waited for azri for half an hour under the scorching sun and went off to mac to chill ourselves. Soon azmi came and off we went for the interview. Azri changed his mind from getting a job there leaving me and azmi for the interview.
Azmi will be posted at forum while me, will be posted at tampines mall. Oh great! Of all the places, tampines mall. -.-"
Hope the manager give us a call for confirmation.

After that, we went to lucky plaza to search for my uncle's working place. And we found out that he was not on duty. What the F lah.
And we head down to FareastPlaza to have our lunch. It was great for the "towkay" of the restaurant to serve us a free char kwey dish! best lah!

After lunch, we went to bugis/haji lane/ arab street to conduct survey on the various shop offering prices for sheesha sets.

After that, i went to fetch love at vivo while the others went home straight.
So when we reached her place, little did i know that the last train to tampines will be at 11.35 pm.I kept insisting that it will be at 12.05am.
So, after sending her, i rushed to the mrt station. And when i reached, what i could see a the LED mrt board was;

ARRIVING .......................................MINS
Ang Mo Kio ..........................................6

Boonlay .................................................5
Boonlay ................................................15

I was like, WHAT THE FUCK again....
and i decided to take the mrt terminating at angmokio station, and alighted at woodlands.
I rushed for the bus queue number 969, and the last bus was at 11.35pm
I then ran to the bus queue number 168, and the termination time was the same as 969.

At that point of time, i was panting and exhausted.
My mind went blank and i giggled like an idiot. A few moments later, decided to borrow sham 20 bucks to go home.
And i have to walk from woodlands to her house which is at admiralty.
God damn i tell you, it was effing far and i was all drenched in perspire.
And my knee cap snapped again.

Nehmind. Reached home at 2 am. And luckily, the taxi driver alight me somewhere near my house, because if i were to ask him to drive a few metres to the exact location, i would have exceeded my budget of bucks of $27.50.

And throughout the journey home, i was like an idiot, calculating the taxi fares.

And dear are still spleeping till now, whereelse i cant have a goodnight sleep. Woke up early in the morning cos my head was hit by a fallen armchair which sends me to a dillusion state. thanks dad for that morning call.

Okay, gonna get ready for sheesha outing with my LOVED ONES!
Its gonna be fun ever!

Quote that i came across.

ITS NO USE FOR YOU TO ANNOUNCE THAT YOU'R NOT INTERESTED IN SOMETHINGS, BUT HELL YEAH, IN THE END YOU DID IT.

Two Headed Serpants.Fcuk off will ya?!

Tuesday, March 25, 2008 @ 11:13 PM

I escaped death today. I think so.
While riding my bicycle under the hdb apartment.
I nearly got hit by a falling bamboo pole .
Damn this is the *counting in mind* times i escaped these kind of dangers.

Hmm. maybe theres something behind this occurance.
HOLY FUCK!
I JUST SAW SOMETHING IN WHITE FLEW PASS MY WINDOW!
SHIT!

owkay, need to speed up my typing.
Well, today was a woderful day and special day for me and sunshine.
Went for soccer in the afternoon and sprained my hand from the game.
I hope its not fractured. Because, i could hear bone fragments sounds cracking up whenever i try to rotate my wrist. Best!
haha! cant play the guitar already ah!
Damn!

Okay. Another part, yes, today is a special day for both of us.:)
you know. I know yeah.
When the sun meets the moon. It gives a beautiful eclipse.
Okay, got to go. Something errie happening.
Good night baby.

@ 10:55 PM

Seriously, im clueless. hah!

@ 2:16 PM

Okay, what happened yesterday?

Well, accompanied yasin to got to terminal 3 early in the morning to get his medical report.

And when we reached there, it was nonetheless, a meaningless journey there.Why?

We were informed that his x-ray report will be ready on wednesday. And he have a dateline of health report submission to Temasek Poly on Yesterday. How great can that be?

So, we head down to TP to enquire and inform the office there.

And besides his medical report, he need to submit some documents.

Again, it was meaningless journey there. Why?

Because, the office told him that he had not submit some relevant documents for his Mendaki's Subsidies Approval.

How troublesome to get into Polytechnics.

And after that, we had lunch. Tomyam cupnoodle with egg. Nice. Wherelese, yasin bought almond iceblend, which taste like somekind of medicine.

After lunch, we head down to CDC to meet up with the others, and head down to sungei road.

I then meet sunshine at her workplace.

Had a great night and a meaninful one.

Thank You Dearest.

Sunday, March 23, 2008 @ 12:08 AM

Poem-ing

The day started when a paper held in my hand.
Repulsive state of illusions.
Creating waves of shivers.
The feeling that i could not stand.

A moment passed.
And a lady approached me.
Glimmering eyes sets to kill.
All i thought was just plain lust.

Time ticks fast
And days goes by.
I'm afraid of the past.
But i just give it a try.

A month seems like yesterday
The paintings shall soon be completed.
She never fail to make my day.
She healed my heart which is torn and tattered.

That is my sunshine.
The source of my light.
The one who shines through great divines.
Who helped me soar to greater heights.

Shes the one.
And she unlocked me.
Whom never be gone.
In my heart till eternity.

Love my sunshine.
Just the same as how the moonlight being loved at.

Hans.

Saturday, March 22, 2008 @ 11:37 PM

Two days of work was just plain boredom.
And I officially sent the letter of resignation yesterday.
My days as an Escapian will end on 29th of march onwards.
Now, all i have to do is just wait patiently for the jobs i applied for to give me a call.

Sidetracking-:
I recently found out, the mass trend followers of skinny jeans. It can be found everywhere.
And sad to say, some of those teenagers just couldnt get it straight into their mind that their fashion sense are just wrong. As in, Red,Blue,WHITE skinny jeans, with checkered tops or white tops, and some even try to potrait themselves as "fashion killers"
Okay, they are fashion killers, TO THEMSELVES.
But for me, it was an EYE KILLER.
And futhermore, singapore has a massive population of scene kids.
They are indeed, killing the cultures, by dressing up and contradicting themselves.
It was a total bummer i should say.
I do appriciate all kinds of music genres and cultures.
Be it Hip-Hop, Rudeboys/girls, skaters,riders,rockers. You name it, i know it.
But some things just have to put a line across it to let others know that it has limitations.

To some readers, if you think reading this gives you a burnt in the anal, then i suggest you to leave.
Because, eventhough if you aren't happy about it, i dont give a damn. Its my point of view. And futhermore, it's my blog.

Thursday, March 20, 2008 @ 11:30 PM

Okay, smile people.

This week had been a busy week for me.

Not about school and stuff like that.

But its a job hunting week.

I tried to apply various jobs from various branches.

From borders,to HMV to Topman.

Hopefully some fromit call me for an interview next week.

And also, i cant wait for next week, as it would be the fun week!

sheesha ahead. And yes, stargazing in a few days time.

Hopefully, it wont rain. Hope for the best though. :)

And wheres my sunshine by the way?

hrmm..

Its time to go.

Sunday, March 16, 2008 @ 11:49 PM

There was once, this happy big family was born.
I was born in 22 November 2006.
It was the day when i 1st met a whole bunch of family members
Who pushed me and support me to be who I am today.
Our mother, the one who never fail to lead us.
Our sisters and brothers, who were there for me.
They are just happy and lovely people whom i respect and love.

Through out the roller coaster rides,
The bends and curves of lives,
We made it through and became strong.
We didn’t know that there's some moment of time,
Where everything would change in a split second.

There was this point of time,
When a maniac starts his spree,
Accompanied by his assistant.
Us, One by one, starts to vanish.
Unreasonable excuses were given.
Motives were blurred.
As the tidal waves starts to hit the shore of happiness
More of us were separated.
We soon could not take this anymore.
And thou shall die sooner or later.

As for now, we should embark on a new journey,
To leave this beautiful house once created,
To build another home, better and safer
On the other side of the river.

This goes to the carnival people.
Even though, sometimes I may be harsh towards some of you,
But I appreciate every single sweat that you worked for to
Build this entire family strong and lovely.
For now, I shall depart from here.
And shall meet you guys in the future.

We are still, one family. Remember that in heart...

Hans.

Thursday, March 13, 2008 @ 11:17 PM

Working life will never be the same again.

No fun. Not a single fun at all.

Seems that majority of the seniors are leaving due

to the kind of unreasonable attitude given by the boss.

Its pathetic to know that, for some small matter, he chose to fire my friends.

I dont understand his stand.

And I'm also at stake. Anytime i could be sack for any stupid reason.

I dont know how to mend with this.

Its never too late for me to quit my job.

I even wanted to throw my uniform at his face and walk off with middle finger pointing at him.

Im sorry for the harsh description.

But this is me when im mad.

Today dosent seems to be a great day for me.

for the 4th time, after wasting 165 dollars on just one prac,

i am totally in the midst of giving up.

But, guess what, i chose not to, cos if i do, i would be feeding that effing driving center free money flow of my heard earn blings.

So, i better earn what i deserve.

My perception has change.

I will change in workplace to.

Dont worry, working mates will not be affected.

In my list, his name will be the top.

And for sure, i'll bring it down to that 6 feet under.

and to you dearest, thanks for being my listening ear and be there for me.

I'll appriciate it.

And you wrote good poem. Thank you.

Hans.

@ 12:38 AM

Currently, im having a stomachache.
And the fingertips on my lift hand are now in bruises.
Tourism papers was quite okay.
I screwed up some questions.

For example, the answer i supposed to write is
"open jaw trip"
And guess what, i wrote, "OPEN MOUTH TRIP"!
WHAT THE FUCK!
I came to realise it after Im done with the papers.
Argh. 2 marks gone.

nows the holidays,
Prac 8 and TP, here i come bebeh!
All the best to me.

Ps. ily,imy ms sunshine. :)

Tuesday, March 11, 2008 @ 11:40 PM

creepling up your body
departal of the anarchy
slithers rise with full of might,
creating whores and make them fight.

dark eternal shall soon arise
deceptions of tuth and lies
immortal will be your armour
eternal death would be forever.

Okay, stop it with my mumbles

POM papers are fuck.
simply fuck to the core.
What i've studied doesnt seem to benefit me.
And it came out with the chapter that i didnt expect to come out.
What the bloody fuck.
Gone case.
And the class went gugu gaga over it.
Well, its over. Left with one more and im good to go,
for fishing,bike test,soccering,working and lastly, sleeping.
Damn i need those rest.

And to you, Please have your meals okay? dont starve yourself. No good. A nono for me.
Okay, i sound gayish. Bastard.

Goodnight cruel earth.
Hans.

Monday, March 10, 2008 @ 11:26 PM

The best.

Children of the elements obey their fathers’ laws

Worship the principles from which the manna falls.

Distinguish between the outmost truth and false

Catalysing divine riddles.

Searching between realities on a holy mission

Discovering the facts and fear the inquisition

Trying to read beyond the noise and the fission

Finding answers in the middle

Searching, searching, searching the ultimate one

Searching, searching, finding Aqua Diabolicum

Processes developing to a stabilized state

Time is expensive with everything at stake.

Through science almighty, through science divine

We bring nirvana to mankind.

Spotting truth in elements

Creative ways of genesis

Achieving everlasting youth; death’s quasid nemesis

Strange smells in the damp, warm corroded cave

Where acids burn and people learn as the fires rave

Beneath the boiling kettles ‘tween where we stand so bold and brave

curious as well as damned

Creatures crawl in the deep dark corners of the chamber

As we peek inside of mother Earth and try to understand her

We find the disease, the reason then we find the cure-

So eager as well as banned.

Something is developed after centuries of seeking

Something is shaped after centuries of beating.

Opening doors in the labyrinth of time

We brought eternal death to mankind

To break the code of gold, a holy quest for the chosen ones

We must stay secret, we must stay strong.

In the deepest black where the quill slowly creeps

across the ochre landscape of a paper sheet

Symbols of facts are written by a steady hand

like only a devoted and wise man can.

In dim candle light they all are written

letter that speak and seem demon-riddenliving, telling little lives

in secret, are they truths or lies?

@ 10:51 PM

Today's paper was sort of manageable for me.

Lucky for me, i had a last minute look through on my pass revision paper.

Though, i was 10 mins later for the paper.

But, it went well.

Hope for the best.

Anyway, did a circuit revision today, and i skidded numerous times.

Lucky for me again, i didnt fell.

And after that, went to study alone, and zuzu,yan and rahu? accompanied me later on.

After that, we went home.

Just as i thought of writing a poem,

I totally forget the motive of it.

whatever.

Good night cruelities.

@ 12:38 AM

Okay, after looking at that picture, i think im gonna buy some chocs tomorrow.

anyway, today, went for study session alone at central park. Wet day today. I almost slipped and fell and nearly crush by bus.

Anway, after studying, went to tampines interchange to meet up with adzri,mai,ijan and sin.

Went off to tekka for paper thosai. The food was damn delicious i tell you.

After that, accompanied mai to return her work clothes at plaza sing. Adzri then left and left the 4 of us.

We head down to marina square for window shopping and slack for a while.

Took bus no.10 home and here i am.

Tomorrow is the start of exam week.

Okay, not a week actually. just 3 days.

Haha!!!

okay, all the best then!

Happy Birthday to zuzu.

And jannah!

Okay, goodnight cruel earth.

Hans.

Saturday, March 08, 2008 @ 11:21 PM

Today was really not my day.
Why? Because i slept late, and woke up early in the morning.
Ok, it was my mistake.
But that dosent stop there, I was gladly and nearly fought with my boss.
Unreasonable. He really made my day.
The never ending crowd of a pack 8000+ crowd was annoying.
Some really anoys me. Some dont.
And i think i fell ill.
And whats up with you, calling me that?
Consider yourself a filthy ass whore i rekon?!

fuck all of you who made my day.
Thanks.

@ 1:23 AM

Today had an outing with some carnival peeps.
Me, yus with his gf, and sin accompanied me to cdc.
After that, we headed down to dhoby to purchase the movie tickets on meet the spartans.
Later on, jannah,ijan and azri came.
The movie was quite humorous though, some parts are abit boring.
i rate it 3 out of 5
After that, we head to lido to chill in maccafe.
And had a mini celebration on jannah's advance birthday.
Azri lost his wallet, and thats the worst part of the day.
It sets the mood to shallow and worst day for him.
haiz.

Anyway, heres the photo

Friday, March 07, 2008 @ 12:28 PM

Studied Alone Near My Old Place, And While Waiting For Bestie To come over after his driving lesson, i observed alot of changes, and some which i didnt expect.

And Suddenly, I had this in mind.

Heres the poem.

THIS IS MY INTERPRETATION

Im watching you from far away

The hands you hold togather

Swaying and bonding as ever

How wonderful it is to see

the man you'll be togather, forever

Its not my assumptions

But just my interpretation

Forever it will be

To set you free

The candle wax melt

Watching the moon sets

The breeze of your aroma

sets me into a shivering state

That ring would never be yours

That love would never be in your heart

That hands would never be hold

For you are just a fucking whore.

Fuck You.

Ps. Its My Pleasure To Slit your Throat and let you bleed slowly in amazement.

Good Day Cruelities.

Hans.

Wednesday, March 05, 2008 @ 11:57 AM

Seriously, im freaking bored, and i need dozens of new photos to edit.

Tuesday, March 04, 2008 @ 9:44 PM

Okay, i felt damn tired today. Thats all.
Need a rest.

Anyway....nevermind. I shall zip my mouth then.

Good Night Cruel Earth.
Hans.

@ 9:32 PM

These are the pictures so far.

zoom effect.

Candid. Not emo. I was dreaming away.

Kiss my Butt!

And Mainah claimed that my face looked like Wahid Satay. For those who dont know him, he is a legendary comedian. What the hell!

Monday, March 03, 2008 @ 11:29 PM

okay, letme update you some of the things happened yesterday.
Well, yesterday, me,sham and mainah went for some photography session.
Well, ofcourse, mainah have to be my camerawoman for the photo session.
The weather doesnt meet our expectation as it was raining all day long.

1st stop is cityhall.We went to have our lunch cum dinner and bought the birthday boy's prezzie at marina square while waiting for the rain to stop. But it didnt. Instead, it kept drizzling, and as a result, we had to have the session somewhere near marina square. After a few minutes, we headed down to peninsular plaza to purchase my guitar strings. And then, we proceed to fortcanning park.
Had the second photoshoot there and head back to esplanade to meet with faz,zimah and thebirthday boy, jojo.

There's gig at the powerhouse and so, we watched a couple of perfomance by Force Vomit. The band was great to me as they used numerous malay songs melody.
After the performance, sham and mainah went off leaving the four of us behind.
So, we chilled near esplanade till 11 at night and head home.

HOME:
Edited the photos from the photoshot till 4 in the morning and slept till 9 in the morning.

TODAY:
I woke up by my phone's message tone. It was azmi who texted me, asking if im going to school or not. And offered me to have a study session in the afternoon with some of the cliques.
So, i thought about it, and decided not to go for school as it is the revision week. Futhermore, debarment list was out already, therefor, no attendence required.
So, asked around the peeps, and decided to go for the plan.

Met azmi,jojo,and dan at raffles city. Dan, as ussual, the one who set the time for the plan, was LATE. So, we head to esplanade rooftop to revise. Soon, zimah came. About a few hours or so, we head to marina square's starbucks, since it starts to drizzle. A few moments later, sham came followed by dearest feka.

Accompanied feka to search for her dress and met mainah.
We head to carls junior to have our "dinner" in the afternoon. While sham,zimah and mainah went off. Leaving us four. After that, went off to town for movie, but ended up, went to a place near wheel lock to have some ciggar. Damn, were doped. TOTALLY!

went home and reached at about an hour ago before typing this post.
Ok, my post was dry. I know that. Anyway, i'll upload the photos next time. My network's lagging.

Goodnight Cruel World.
Hans

Sunday, March 02, 2008 @ 12:01 PM

You told me im useless.
You told me my house chores are nothing compared to yours.
You told me im stingy
You told me im just cant be bothered.
And worse, you told me im such a disappointment.

You told me these just before i went for work. Finding some breads to put on the table.
You told me these just because i told you that you were blabbering nonsensical stuff about my cleanliness of the house?

Im just speechless.
Totally.
I think i am what you think i am now.
Thanks for that.
Im sorry by the way.