You're like a disease.

Monday, October 30, 2006 @ 8:45 PM

Its not me whos playing revenge.
I dont even have that in mind.
Please, no time for revenge ok.
What i said, is what you said in the past.
If you could link back the past when talking to me,
why i cant?
If i could handle it,
Why you cant?

Please, its you who are becomming like me like what i used to be before we patch up.
Sensitive,
over reactive,
Stressed.
Assume things.
And Thinking too much.
That is what i am last time.
I owned up.

But now, i tried my best, making your wish to come true.
Be as caring as possible.
Be as loving as possible.
Never give up on you.
Pinned High hopes on this relationship.

Its you who made me realise who i am today okay.
Its you who made me into a better person.

I still remembered, you told me, that i am too good for you.
That is the exact same feelings i had last time.
Which is you are too good for me.
That is also part of why i broke off with you.

But now, yar, i mean, I really want you to change.
But didnt expact you changed too much.

I know you are stressed over school work.
You really need some peers to comfort you.

My comfort alone is not enough.
You need your family members.
Come on, i went through this.
I am sure what you are feeling.

If you dont want to open up what you are thinking.
Its ok. Cos you yourself said, Its better to leave things unsaid.
Yes, i also agree, TO a CERTAIN extend.
Why? because not all problems you could hide it away.
You have to tell me.
Atleast i know what is going on and give you advices or whatsoever.

I thank god for what i get now.
I get the taste of retribution of what i did last time.
I know my mistakes.
Human do make mistakes.
But they could only improve if they dont be stuborn and learn their mistakes.

I hope this post really does help you understand what the situation is.
Hope you got something to say or what.
We are partners.
Share probs togather, not hide things.
Give oppinions not sacarsm.

If you really want to say goodbye to me for the last time, make it a msg.
If not, than please, do talk things out when you are cooled down.

Remember, i would always love you,
eventhough we argued or im just being spit by ugly words.
You know it yourself.
I do.

And also, sorry for giving you a hard time to adapt in this kind of situation.
Cos every r/s have its obstacles.
Hope you could learn from it.

Tata.
Love you always.
<3

@ 8:07 PM

hai. Seeing you msging me like that, made me reflect back what did i told you off this time.
You asked me to be who i am.
But when i be one, you couldnt stand it.
I know, sometimes the way i talk and msg, made your blood boils up.
And its like for how long can we suffer in this kind of situation?
when we always misunderstood each other?

This really pulled our relationship nearer to the tip of the needle.
Hope we could pull off this.

This Fashion

Sunday, October 29, 2006 @ 7:50 PM

All i care for now is you.
All i think now is you.
But ever had you think i did that for you?
Despite those words from my serpeant tongue.
Despite those voice tones from my infacted throat.
There is still, lies beneath the lungs, a heart which pumps endlessly, hoping to merge with yours.

All i could do now is just try to be perfect for you.
Tries to understand you.
But how could i ever understand you when i myself couldnt understand me.
Thats another story to be written.

But till now, i am, and still, cherish you in my heart.
I hope one day, we would achieve our dream in this relationship.
We would support each other.
We would open up and speak our minds with each other.

Hold each other hands and felt the warmth those fingers had which slipped just perfectly in between.

Ps. Good Luck For my friends and Der Der for tomorrow's paper ok.
And This is our final battle. Endure and suffer till the sky turns clear.
Ok. Love you guys.

@ 1:20 AM

h.Perhaps, i just cant be too concern. It will do more harm to me. What they say is right.
Perhaps, im just a person who's too protective and obsessed with things.
Perhaps, im just ignorant about myself.

What more can i do than just sitting there and let the time pass by and being laugh at?
What more can i do than just wondering why am i here in the 1st place.

Now its up to fate.
Its up to That Thing Above
Its Up to me.

Friday, October 27, 2006 @ 12:06 AM

Thinking of you in this state always left me in a tearfull state.
I wonder, why,
why you seem to take things tooo seriously.
I still love you. But why you use those tone on me.
I tried to understand you dear. I swear that i really trying my best dear.
I see a great change in you. But when i told you that, you misunderstood me.
Infact, you reacted.
I wonder am i fated to these?
is this what i get to deserve a long lasting relationship?
is this part of the obstacles?

I know you also want to change.
But, it seems that, every comments i gave you,
you changed for the sake of my happiness.
You do it for me, not for you.
Why am i saying this, because the tone you used on me was telling me that you did those for the sake of me, and forget about yourself.

I dont want you to be like that.
I want you to be yourself.
You dont need do anything to make me understand.
All i want is you, to be yourself.
To open to me.
I will, myself, try my very best to understandyou.

I am fated that when i care for a person, i tend to hurt them than caring for them.
I know you are disappointed as i dont want you to come over if i study alone.
This is because, i did that because i dont want you to trouble yourself.

Hai...am i not opening to you?
if i am, please dear, please tell me.
I really want this relationship to last.
You could go back to the past and try to differentiate me.
I really am trying.

Its ok if you dont believe in religion,
but to me, i just pray hard for you to really have a blessing days ahead
with those whom you love, care for you and support you throught your journey of life.

Thats all.
I need not say much as i dont want any misunderstood to take place.

Your guy,(the one who believe he matters to you)
Hans.

Thursday, October 26, 2006 @ 9:34 PM

Taken while the car are in the "automatic car washer"sp?

In the morning, did some manual cleaning on guitar
In the afternoon went for soccer.
Injured on the right back of the kidney due to some accident during soccer.
Went back home in the evening.
Heard alot of dogs bark at thin air.
Realised tonight malam jumaat.
Reached home and only to find out that my family still have not reached home yet.
FYI, they went to visit relatives who passed away.
I didnt. But Gave My condolences.
For 2 hours, till 9, I repaint my pickups and other parts of the guitar in red.
Well, it looks presentable. Stickers that are not suppose to be there are thrown away.
During these hours, while im doing those stuff, I felt odd in the atmosphere.
I felt someone watching over me. Despite blasting the speaker to full mode, i still felt something watching over me. Chill ran down my spine as i kept glancing at the corner of my eyes.

Well, another feeling is that i start to feel somethings not right tonight.
I am worried about her.
You people wouldnt know how exactly my feelings are.
But It seems that, eventhough i just met her the other day,
I still miss her. Is this natural? Or am i some kind of obsessed with her?
But missing her from the bottom of my heart isnt a crime?
Ok stop my nonsense.

I am still waiting for her to reply my msges or atleast give me a call.
I am dead worry bout her.
If i could, i would go and walk her home.
But my kidney are killing me.
As i wanted to take a step using my right leg, the pain starts to sting.
Nevermind, should ask my parents about it.

Still, i am missing you.
Where are you my love.
I am worried.
Sigh.

@ 1:08 AM

Is this true?? OMG!

Slept from 3 till 4. Woke up due to vibration caused by phone.
Vincent asked wheather to go and watch junyuan performing arts permform at Tampines Mall.
So, i agreed and met up the gang.
Saw her. Cute larrr.
Then saw others such as ain,farhan,aim,dan and many others.
I adore the body of Kian Hwee's Brother. Mascular babe. Im not gay or something. But, fuuyoh.
Hardwork really have to be paid to earn that kind of Biceps!

Ok, so, after the performances, took off and had lunch.
Met up with her and soon slacked around.
And went back home.

Finally, had some time with you.
But still, im missing you. If only the night are long.
If only the time would stop when we were at the right place.
If only things happen the way we wanted.
How can that can happen.
Hope it does.

Love you.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006 @ 12:50 PM

People, take a gun and shot me through the head.
Im always hurting you guys with my words and jokes.
I am truely sorry.
But thank you for letting me know you are hurt with those words.
I promise i wont say it again.
If i do, slit my tongue and let the beast eat it.

To my dear,
I appologise for what i've done.
I thought it was just a kind of a tease whereelse to you, it really pierced your heart.
If you cant forgive me. Its ok.
I wont forgive myself though.

I accept those things you told me off.
I accept that punishment for making you sad.
I guess im enjoying too much.
maybe should end my life not long ago.

good bye.
Hans.

@ 8:05 AM

Family.

Siblings With glamorous granny.

us with the bodybuilder and his wife. aka, my proton driver.nyaha!

Happily Accepting Green Packets =D

Photostep Machine of Father And Daughter

Cousins. My retard face.

Husbands And Wives Mode

The Car.

Tuesday, October 24, 2006 @ 12:46 AM

I was hit by a stupid car.
Stupid car, wanted to turn into the carpark where i was crossing.
The stupid driver didnt even on the signal sign.
I scrambled off and luckily, only my left ankle was hit by the bumper.

The driver didnt even stop.
I couldnt see the face as the window was tinted.
Bloody hell, threw a tin can at the car.
I dont care weather that stupid evo lancer is great or not.

Fucker.

I think im catching fever. Eyes burning..Have to go,eat panadol and GEDEBAB! sleep!

Dearest,
I will be missing you.
As you enjoy your days,
dont forget me.
Cos im always thinking of you.
Love you always

Monday, October 23, 2006 @ 5:19 PM

She played with focus

Emo side of jeremy.

lalala~~~

Mr Chee Showing odd his phone.

Gila

act cute only.

In the morning, gave her a morning wake up call.
Haha, her voice soo cute. love her.
Adter that, went to school with sam,jr,bk,ariff and farhan I for self study.
Did some geo and crapped with them.
Saw that guy came in to the library -_-
soon, i smelled a scent.
Like her perfume.
And turned around, saw her there with him -_-+
I then handed her the book and soon, it was 12.30 pm.
The library closesas it was a "half-day" working hour for the librarian for today due to Hari Raya eve.
She just left without saying gd bye. But nevermind, she went for her class.

So, went out of school and did not know where to go, so,joined with peiwen,lydia,jeremy,mariah,mr chee , cherie and yi hao.
Accompanied the chinese to eat and crappd with mariah.

After their lunch, walked and went for neoprints at CS.
After that, went to TM, and saw her with her gang.
Shes watching this movie called Death Note.
And he insisted to sit with her.
Fcuk.
Nvm as long nothing happen to her, im fine with it.
After strolling around the shopping center, walked home.
cherie went off first followed by peiwen.

And walked bothe mariah and lydia home.
and here i am, at home.

Still waiting for her reply.

To der der.
Hope you enjoy today's outing with the gang.
Hope to spend time with you.
Hope they approve us to be togather.

Take Care.

And to all my muslim friends, I wish you a Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.
Maaf Zahir Dan Batin. If i did anything that hurt your feelings or anything that had a bad impact on you guys, Forgive me. Let Bygones be bygones.
Miss You all!

Hans.
06'

Sunday, October 22, 2006 @ 11:18 PM

What a boring day today.
I spent almost half the day dozzing off in bed.
Woke up and msged her.
Shes as sweet as ever.
I love her soo much.

Did some 'error-spotings' on the band's video.
After that, polish up on the songs.
And smsed her.

Missing her too much till i felt breathless.
Nothing could describe mmy feelings.
Hope shes fine.
Shes stress.
I now will be prepared for any burst.
As i know she is now stressed up.

To her:
Take good care kay dear.
I'll always be here for you, be there for you..which one ah? here or there?
Anything must msg me kay. Must tell me.
Dont hesitate. Im your guy mah.
Muah. Much Love.
From me to you.

Hans.
<3

@ 3:19 PM

Here I am, with you
Once togather
Loving and Caring
I am always happy with you.

Have you ever thread
Those Days of Happiness
I carved both our names
Here in our heaven.

When we love the others
Maybe this heart would obstinate
Maybe it would never happen
That my love would fade.

If u love somebody
Could we be this strong
I will fight to win
Our love will conquer all
Wouldn’t risk my love
Even just one night
Our love will stay in my heart

Sign.
Hans.

@ 1:00 AM

Memory Cover( my face looks retard in the first few secs.)

Dirty Little Secrets(again, i look retard..)

(Holiday Cover)

(Helena..Damnit...i my singing was like a shucks...)

Saturday, October 21, 2006 @ 11:33 PM

well, yesterday, which is friday night, went out with min,dan.aim and akif for prayers.
I came to min's house and had a rest till 1 am. 1 am, we took off and meet the rest.
We then slacked at 885 and at 3 am, we went to mosque.
Prayed and ate there.

around 6 am ,which is today, took off and slacked again near 872.
Saw this uncle doing warming up.
The way he did it was funny.
Dan took vedio of him.

Soon, at around 7, i cant bare to keep awake, i went back home and kaboom slept till 1pm.
Around 1.45, went for jamming session.
Pracitec Helena, Wake me up, Memory and Dirty Litle Secret.
Helena was fun, we pulled off almost 3/4 of the song within one practice while the others are just great.

After Jamming, ash and farhan tre went somewhere while me and ariff walked back to TM.
I meet up with her and her friends while ariff went back home.
Missing her alot.
Soon, both her friends took off, and we went to spend time.
And then went back home.

My care for you always disappoints you.
Im sorry for just now.
All i wanted is that you not to stay up too late, cos your just recovered.
And with that, you could go study earlier and go home earlier.
But you blurted out.
I know you really wanted to have a time for both of us.
And i know i am too protective.
Sorry for being such a guy.
Hope you forgive me.
Promise i wont do it again.
<3 You my dearest

Friday, October 20, 2006 @ 12:06 AM

First Of all, i would like to talk about Science O Level Practical Exams.
It was terrific for physics but a little Horrific for chemistry as i screwed up the experiment!
It suppose to be copper sulphate, but I put IRON (II) (FE²+)
Damned! Damned! Damned!

Nevermind, i still can cath up with the theory.
Worst of all, one of my friend turned up only 15 mins before the paper ends.
Reason being was that he didnt know that today will be having an exam.
What a waste and what a day for him.
He managed to finish up the physics paper but chemistry.
Pity for him. He really have to battle through the other 2 science papers.

After the exam, went back home and practice "im not okay" song, followed by memory and helena. About 4.45 pm, got ready and went off to interchange to meet up with faiza,ril,reez and farhan to break fast at payar lebar.

We were supposed to eat at this "arnolds" restaurant at city plaza but it was fully booked. So we headed to Singapore Post Center Kopitiam and had our Meals there. Mariah and Dahlia I soon came and followed by Hafizah And Her guy. About 10 mins time, Yun and her Guy came, followed by dee and wirdah. After that, Dahlia Y and Hafizah came and join us.
It was great to see us enjoying the meals. I had Yong Tao Fu!

Made alot of backfired with mariah. Haha."Mama eat while looking at him only ah..." haha!
You know what i mean ah mariah.

At around 8 or so, we went off to geylang pasar malam. The place there are not as crowded. Duuh! it is during weekdays dude. haha. Soon after, Yun and her guy went off 1st.
And den Dahlia Y and Hafizah went to joo chiat to look for hari raya clothes.

Me and farhan bought this yamakamablabla-yaki thingy...well its a japanese pizza food. haha. A
At around 9 plus, we went Back to Singapore Post and had a break at the KFC. Soon, we left , and hafizah with her guy didnt follow us.

Wirda and Dahlia I left, and left ma,farhan,dee,iza, ril,reez and me.
We went to Mac to slack for a while and walked home.

Dee and reez took bus while the remaining of us walked home.
I accompanied farhan to walk mariah home,
and ril left us with iza.

Soon, left me and farhan, and i reached back home.

What the hell,i realised that im giving alot of details in this post. Well, nevermind.
Thats all for today! Had a great day!

Thanks you peopl for making the day great!
Love You all! <3

To my dearest,
Please take good Care Of yourself.
Dont stay up late at night.
Must Take A rest.
I know your bones are breaking when taking too much rest.
But its for your benefits.
Just let your mind and soul rest..
Dont Stress up too much.
Its been a long day for you...
yes..a long day....
Loving you always.
Muah.

Thursday, October 19, 2006 @ 12:38 AM

SmokE! Haha. Busted!

Yi Hao looks like being deprived from using HandPhone.

Pei Wens pencil box Had an Extreme Make over!

Lame Face!

Today had SS remedial again.
Went through Merger And Seperation SBQ script.
Had Better understandings in it.

After Remedial,planned to meet Mdm Wong,
But She scrambled off for the Promotion Meeting for The lower Sec.
What The HEEEELLLLLLL!!!!!!!

So, me,farhan,dee, join the ass people for study session in the library.
They are non other than Pei Wen, Mariah, Lydia,Cherie and Yi hao.
Mariah and Farhan always quarrel.
Dee always punch and abuse my left arm.
While Lydia Tries to burp out.

Peiwen in the other hand, have something fishy going around.
Cherie like meditate, listening to Mp3 while memorising.
Yi hao Dont know what he doing.

Went back home at around 4 in the afternoon and had some rest.
In the evening, went out with EC to study Abit. You know that much...Abit...ah...like that...yar yar..
Dear came to meet me and we went off earier.

Sent her home and met Dan on the way home. Wtf, 12 am still go out study with min and aim.
Great, if only i have no curfew. Sheesh!

Thats all for today.

Am i hungry ah?
haha
<3

Damned! Lydia Heard me fart lar sia! Eurgh! Awsome anyways. haha!

Tuesday, October 17, 2006 @ 10:45 PM

Today, let me blog using special language. I think Ariff,James,BK,JR and some others know the reason behind it.

Ok. Well, I would like to change words that have letters "L" to switch to "R" and vise Versa.

ok let me start.

Today SS Lemediar was a gleat one. Infact i Realnt Arot Of Things.
Aftel SS Lemediar, me, Falhan and dee went foL Physics consoring session.
I rove this language al.
Vely Fun! Tlust Me! No Leglets!
I berieve i can fry.
I berieve i courd touch the sky.

If i cannot fry,
i frall and lorrl on the frool
wtf lah...stop it...i cant type like this.

ok back to 1st para ah.
Todat SS remedial was a great one. Infact, I learnt alot of things.
After SS remedial, me, farhan and dee went for Physics consoling session.
Luckily i had my doubts cleared for practical.
After Physics, went up to 5n2 Class room. It was quiet. AS i step into the class, i could imagine those smiling faces, the teacher standing infront of the white board and those noises we made.
I still could remember where they are all seated.
All came flashing back.
As i took my chemistry book and Some stuff back home, it was like....damn..not going to feel emo...stop it.

After that, went down, and saw her. Called her, i was surprises as she didnt even heard my call. Haha. So, after had a talk for a few seconds, went back home, practiced helena,memory song.
And then, went for "studies" with EC and went back home.

Now here i am, leraxing on the chail. Vely Comfoltable. I rike!
Peace Out.

No, Please, dont be too stressed up.
I care and worried for your beings.
Dont feel guilty about this as its my duty to feel so.
Hope you are fine and smile.
Love you and missing you always.
Muah<3

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@ 8:52 PM

1st, i would like to wish ARIFF a HAPPY 17 th BIRTHDAY! BEST WISHES FROM ME TO YOU DUDE!

2nd, Today's Geo Remedial is some sort of productive to me as i learnt something. Tomorrow will be going to school again for SS and Physics remedial. Im feeling good bebeh! haha.

Hmm. what more to say? I dont know. Well, to summarise the story for today, I think i did great. Not forgeting, i nearly wanted to pinch Bk's Nipples. Hes soo freaking noisy in class today. Imean in the later part of the class. Damn you BK. Haha.

Still waiting for her.
Hmm. Shes asleep. Well,
Wait for her then.

Dar Dar miss you dear.
Muah.

@ 1:13 AM

All i could do is just lay down, with you.
Gazing up at the stars. And smile after wishing upon the shooting star.

Sunday, October 15, 2006 @ 3:34 PM

Cute right?! aawwww!

Yesterday had a great day. I had jamming session with the band. Vincent,Sam,Farhan I ,James and Boon Kiat tagged along. Sadly, I had to leave the place early as i need to go to my grandma's house to break fast there.My father came over to fetch me by van and we drove off to commonwealth. Had a feast there with relatives. Sort of an annual family reunion. I ate alot. I didnt know why. After the feast, backed home and met up with crazy her to send her home.

Thats all i've gotta say.

Today, nuthing much, woke up at 11 in the morning.
Chat chat chat. And then had some geography revision.
At night, meeting her for study session.

thats all.

Days are passing by, i didnt know what to do.

Saturday, October 14, 2006 @ 1:49 AM

The Gays.

Them

Reez and Mdm Teo(FnN Teacher)

The BnB.. Haha.

Loyal Geo Student of Ms Tan!

Me with the "bitches" thats what they called themselves From BnB. haha.

Us With Ms Tan, Ms Ng, Mrs Queck

Us With Ms Tan

@ 12:34 AM

Us With Mr Hunk

Hunks

Her And Him(retard Face)

Becs, Han, Hui Zhuang

Kian Hwee, Rodric, Martin

Yay! Yun And Me! Like Siblings Rite!?

Pimp Squadron

Us with Ckgu Irni

Malay Gang

Ann-Han-Anna

Han And Ain.

Tall And Shot Farhans

Omg. BOON KIAT!!!!! Haiyo!!!

Am I flying or what?

Desperate Lovers

Graduants

Mrs Queck Always look cute

Muscle

Us with Ms Tan our geography Teacher!

First, i would like to say, "f***k" the caugh im having now.
Stupid Sickness. Caughed out blood.
Nvm.

Second, Im gonna miss Junyuan Secondary from today onwards.
Hais.

I hope things goes as happily ever after. Love you always.

Thursday, October 12, 2006 @ 11:49 PM

Its Time For me To Go.
Someone pass me a silk.
A Samurai Katana
Let the harakiri begins.

This Caugh wont go away.
Im dieing from it.
Well i think i am dieing.
Maybe after Os?

Nevermind. I dont want to hurt more people.
Thank Yous And Your Welcomes.

So long and good Night.
What more can i say.
Im just a sharp tongue dude with a heartless soul.
Im better off dead.
Cant even help myself,
Wants to help others?
What the hell.
Without any futher a-do,
I just end this note with a blank Signiature.
Sign,

_____________

@ 10:46 PM

In the morning, again went for SS remedial.
Went in to the school with Farhan I and Dee.
Met up with james, bk and JR in the library.
Ms Ross Really good in teaching SS.
I am now Understanding quite well aready.
Had a clear understanding on answering those questions i doubt about.

Went back home alone and Practiced Songs.
Didnt saw her the whole day.

And yeah, thanks to SK for helping me out yesterday night to check on her.

And to Lydia, Happy17th Birthday!

Still In confusion. Hope The 'He' and the 'She' is fine.

Finally, could meet her tmr. Best!

Tomorrow will be an official day for us to be out of the school.
I wish this day would not come.
But im afraid, it will.
Well, IT IS GOIN TO HAPPEN.
damnit.

Miss you guys.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006 @ 8:51 PM

Im Still Waiting for her to Reply My msges.
Is she asleep?
If She does, Then i shall not call her then.
Let her rest. its been a long day for her.
A long day...

@ 4:24 PM

Went For Geo Remedial at 11 am.
After geo , went for SS class.
Within 3 Hours of class today, i could gain knowledge on answering those big questions for the subjects.

Saw Her when going home.
Shes all alone.
Doing her things.
Worriyng bout her because she still didnt eat almost half of the day.
Wanted to buy her some food.
But Fcuk the HP bill.
I have to pay a cost of 30 Dollars out of 50 dollars.
Eurgh! What a scam. Free incoming calls but in the end, they charge you abit.
Still cost alot!

Nvm.
Walked home and Msg her.
She didnt reply.
But nevermind, shes busy. Hope Shes doing fine.
Miss her alot.

Pulled off Helena, Welcome to the black parade, wake me up, holiday, memory, boulavard of broken dreams, all on drugs within 3 days.
And when am i going to have money!?
Jamming session this saturday. I cant always go with empty pocket and let the band pay.
Damn myself for doing that.

Tuesday, October 10, 2006 @ 9:54 PM

Stupid cough.
The whole day was a total madness.
Madness as in im dead bored.
Practice Mcr WTBP.
And Pulled Off almost 90% of the song.
Yeah Baby!

Missing her Alot.
She is now doing her art
And overnight in her friend's house.
Hope she would take good care of herself.
All i could say now is "JIA YOU!"

haha.

Missing you always.

Monday, October 09, 2006 @ 11:32 PM

It was a great day today
Had Geo Remedial in the morning.
And at 12.15, met up with Ain,Dee,Farhan,Dan,Aim,Mariah
To study at the National Library.
Went out at an estimated time of 12.pm.
Waited for the bus for 20 mins.
The weather was so hot and still, no bus are launched yet?
20 mins later, TWO buses came. Wtf!
Boarded the bus and had a chat with the driver.

Cmon SBS, put your timing properly.
Haiyo.

Soon, met up with the gang.
Went to bugis and met with Fareez.
Did my dnt and some physics in the lib.
Met Up with Dee's Friend.

Around 6 or so, went to KFC to break fast.
Dan went home 1st.
After Breaking Fast,
Went to city hall.
Went to Citylink Hmv
Listen to all the New Iron Maiden Album Songs.

After that, Aim and reez went home.
Me,dee,ain,Farhan and dee's friend went to Esplanade.
Saw a nice wire exhibitions.
After a walk there, went back home.

Met up with her.
Its wierd that i couldnt recognise her from behind.
I thought shes just a passer-by.
But Its Her!
Disappointed on myself since i cant even recognise the one i truely love.

After had a time with her, went back home.
And thats all folks.

Sunday, October 08, 2006 @ 1:31 PM

Went out with ash and farhan tre for breaking fast.
reached woodlands to break fast at canadian pizza.
But theres no any of the outlets at all.
So, we ate at BK.

Bought new handphone casing and a keypad for only 5 bucks in pasar malam.
The stall keeper was like convince me to buy.
you know, like drug extorsion.

Went to orchard alone, apart from ash and farhan tre
Want to meet up with her.
But her group suddenly went off just as i reach there.
So went back tamp and wait for her.

Met up with her.
Shes gorgeous.
Love the way she dresses.
Bought some candles, lanterns to play with.
Had really a great time.
I guess she really think aboout the convo.
That night was like me being pushed into a bright and quiet place.
So peaceful.

Went back home.
And suddenly,
everything change.
She changed back.
Due to somethings.
Its like, am i getting those love times temporary for a night?
Is God that revengeful? Or Is he trying to hint me something?
I appriciate what i got yesterday.

To her, please, dont change.
I Love the way you are yesterday.
Please, dont change for the worst again.
And dont ever blame yourself.
You are not in the wrong side.
I am. So dear, dont get those obstacles to destroy the knot between us.

Love you.

Mooncake

Saturday, October 07, 2006 @ 3:18 AM

Extra classes in the morning made me gain knowledge.
Better than lazing around in the morning.
The haze are getting worst and all we could do is hope that it rains.

In the evening, went out early as mom and grandma had a big quarrel.
Met up with easy company and off we went to Central Park.
Met up with the 5ns at the mangosteen playground, which Boon Kiat mistook it as a rambutan.
Made A few Fire cracker Bombs. Some was a success while some are just plain old fountain of sparks of red/green/blue flames.

I know some of you, my friend, who tried to help me.
Its time for you to stop helping me.
Only advice.
I am matured enough to think and to settle this problem on my own.

Had a good and meaningful chat with her.
Atleast i got to hold her hands that night.
That hand, i hope to hold on forever.
As i now, truely, deeply love her and will never let her go.
I dont care what others said about me.
I hope you do the same.

It hurts to see your tears rolling down your beautiful face.
Tears full of remorse and confusion.
I know its hard.
Hope you could still follow your heart.
I still believe that i carved my name in that special place in your heart.
Please. Dont leave me.
Love you to the fullest.
I promise no more stupid arguments between us.
Take Care.
My dear.

Thursday, October 05, 2006 @ 4:29 PM

Sitting alone, waiting for her.
Wondering when can i have a time with her.
Worrying about her.
Shes busy all this while.
Busy meeting her friends,
Doing her school work,
And having problems.
Hope Shes fine.
Thats all.
Miss her alot.

And i Miss My class too.
Miss Those lessons in school.
Nevermind. We have to go through this.

Hold on tight.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006 @ 3:43 PM

1.single,taken or crushing?-Taken

2.are u happy with ur life now?-Happy when im with her.

3.when u meet the right person,do u fall in love with her fast?-depends.

4.have u ever had ur heart broken?-numorous times.

5.do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?-No way. Thats truely a sin to do.

6.would u take back someone who cheats you?-I follow my heart and my trust. If theres still left within me then why not give a second chance?

7.have u talked abt marriage with another person before?-yes, although still i am underage for that, have to be realistic at times.

.8.do you want children?-Yeah.

9.how many?-2 is acceptable.

10.would u ever consider adoption?-Nah.

11.if someone likes you now,wad is the best way to let u noe his/her feelings?- Tell her about me not liking her/liking her and my status.

12.do u enjoy getting into relationships?-If you put your heart and soul into it and make a happy ending, yeah, why not?

13.honestly,wad's the furthest thing u and ur ex did?-dont have at all.

14.do u believe in love at first sight?-Yeap.

15.are u romantic?-Ask her. But yeah sure, i cant deny that. Haha.

16.do u believe dat you can change someone?-Yeap. Change for the better.

17.if u could marry someone,where will it be?- My homeland.

18.do u give in easily when fighting?-If fist Fighting, ans is no. If arguing type of fighting, i would say yes to some extend.

19.do u have feelings for someone right now?-her.

20.have u ever wished u could have had someone but messed u it up?-Yargh.

21.have u ever broken a heart?-Yeap. I know its hurtful. Im sorry to those whom are my victims.

22.if one day ur best fren fell in love with the boy/girl u are deeply in love with,wad would u do?- Try My very best To win her heart. No fighting.

23.are u missing someone right now?-Yes. You my dear.

name 5 frens u want them to do dis survey: Ariff,Rebecca,ain ali, bk,diyana.

Tuesday, October 03, 2006 @ 11:11 PM

Sick

Be prepared for your soul to be pulled out.
Look back when you are going to die.
You cry your lungs out,
As the angels and the guardians will teach you how to fly.
Its time to say good Bye.

Worrying about her beings.
Worrying about us.
But all i could do is to look on to the bright side.
Everyday the feelings gets stronger.

I saw her.
Her looks were filled with remorse.
I couldnt know what to do.
I tried to comfort her.
She tries to hide and fake her true feelings.
Alot of things have been going through her mind.
Her stress, her pressure.
I really do love her.
I really do care for her.
She is now meant alot to me.
When i get to hold her small hand.
Get to hug her warm body.
I felt as if im all alone in this world with her.
Everything seemed to disappear and left us alone.
Alone with full of joy and happiness.
Really Hope that we will be togather till eternity.
I hope she could endure and hang on till the end of this year.
And therefore, she will be happy and sweet.

Love you. Happy 5th month.

Sincere Appologies

Monday, October 02, 2006 @ 2:59 AM

I would like to appologise to those i had hurt this month.
Especailly that guy and that girl of mine.
Im sorry for my decpicable behaviour.
I will try to change regarding your comments you had on me.

Ok. Im sorry.
You should no longer see my face ok.
Best Regards.
Farhan.

Sunday, October 01, 2006 @ 9:50 PM

Like Mcr sia. haha

Do sumersault.
Flying high.
Touch the sky.
Fall Back to the ground.
Head smashed.
Blood Gushing out.
But Heart Still Pumping in Action.

Saw her face.
Saw her smile.
She walk into the graveyard.
With full of grace.
At the tip of the tongue.
The Taste of blood.
But all she could fear of,
Was the damned from God.

She open the casket.
Sliped her right leg in.
A scorpion of lust.
An eye of envy.
She then lay down.
And close her eyes shut.
Hoping that she will meet her pet,
The great blood hound.

Tada. Nothing to write.
So i type those.
Anyway, 2 more days and were out of the school
I bet, boonkiat is going to be emo on tuesday.
Dont worry bk, my shoulder is here for you to cry on.
But not too much ah.
Later my shirt wet.
I dont want to be emo as im full already.
Dont want to have the emo bread and coke.

*slaps myself*

alright. Outs.

Love you dear!

"Welcome To The Black Parade"

@ 2:55 AM

When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.
He said, "Son when you grow up,
would you be the saviour of the broken, the beaten and the damned?
"He said "Will you defeat them,
your demons, and all the non believers,
the plans that they have made?"
Because one day I'll leave you,
A phantom to lead you in the summer,
To join the black parade.

"When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.
He said, "Son when you grow up,
would you be the saviour of the broken, the beaten and the damned?"

Sometimes I get the feeling she's watching over me.
And other times I feel like I should go.
And through it all, the rise and fall, the bodies in the streets.
When you're gone we want you all to know.
We'll carry on,
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And in my heart
I can't contain it
The anthem won't explain it.

A woman sends you reeling from decimated dreams
Your misery and hate will kill us all.
So paint it black and take it back
Lets shout it loud and clear
Defiant to the end
We hear the call
To carry on
We'll carry on
Though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches
On and on we carry through the fears
Ooh oh ohhhh
Disappointed faces of your peers
Ooh oh ohhhh
Take a look at me cause
I could not care at all

Do or die
You'll never make me
Because the world,
will never take my heart
You can try, you'll never break me
You want it all, you wanna play this part
I won't explain or say I'm sorry
I'm unashamed, I'm gonna show my scar
Give a cheer, for all the broken
Listen here, because it's only you

I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
I'm just a boy, who's meant to sing this song
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
I -- don't -- care

We'll carry on
We'll carry on
Though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
You'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches on
We'll carry on
We'll carry on
We'll carry on
We'll carry
We'll carry on

(Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world, will never take my heart
You can try, you'll never break me
You want it all, you wanna play this part)