You're like a disease.

Pregnant Woman.

Wednesday, May 31, 2006 @ 4:56 PM

Farhan Ismail Fell from his chair.

I had my English Prelim Oral Just now. What i guage is that i totally screwed up my reading! In stead of reading "need to be....", i read it as "dont need to be...." Its a big "what the hell" for me.

Conversaion wise was good for me. I spoke alot. Eventhough my lips were dried up and my tongue was stiff, i managed to talk.

I believe i could do well for it. Except for reading.

Ok here are some of my questions. Please tag me to answer.

Do pregnant women really a "hot headed" person?
Do they really changed themselves in person?
Do they really easily fussy about things happening around them?

Well, i asked these questions because im really wondering, why this particular teacher, who has been teaching art in my school, really change alot since she and her husband "made a new baby". Why is that so? It is because, i heard that most of my friends are really pinned downed by her comments and her anger. Sadly to say that, i really hated her alot eversince she thought my class english. She thought us english by communicating with us in "singlish". And She really owes me my 65mb MMC card which i gave her to upload my project.

What really bothers me is that, she is soo fussy on students giving her work. Ok ok. I know its for the student's own good. But what i have been hearing all this while is that my friends are all stressed up. Even my dear. What i heard is that she really wants the student's art piece to be as complicated as ever so that the viewers could look at the workpieces with alot of thoughts.

Ok some of her points are correct. But i seen alot of my friend's art work and it really made me confused. How confusing she want it to be? so wierd. And she even threatened to dropped the students from the subject if they did not do their work. What the hell. To me, everyone does their work. Oh My god.

Im really pissed when she scolded my friends just like that. People like muhaimin and my dear. What the hell. Just now, im really boiled up after hearing those comments she gave to my friends. And all i think of her is, "Go home and make more babies lar bitch."

Ok enough of this. To those suffering art students, please, persevere to this beast. Eventhough u get a "hard ass" comment, just treat it as a learning point. Be sure to do your task on schedule.
Show that bitch that you are capable on handling on your own. Do the best you can! Im sure you could!

And to that bitch, simple. Shut the fuck up and go make more babies, BITCH. Thank You.

Wierd

Tuesday, May 30, 2006 @ 9:49 PM

Ok i drew for fun.

Money makes the world goes round? Or issit The world make money goes round? what i meant by that sentence is that is the world, "the people", makes the money goes around or issit vise versa? Up to you to decide.

Statement 2: Is love the source of human happiness or is it that Human make love with happiness? again, you decide.

Well im not studying any psycho-logical things. But these are what i observe. If you do have a bad feeling about it, then you may leave. Do not keep on reading it.

Well, what i am most bothered is that, are humans now getting dumb or smarter? Well, from what i observed is that human nowadays, not all, are getting more excited with love life. Like what my friend called, LoL. Not laugh out loud. But lack of Love. So, is it true? or is it some sort of a gimmick? I guess its quite true. Such that, i see students nowadays emphasize more on their love ones than their future. Im not talking about their family members. I am talking about their relationship mates. Doesnt matter wheather they are a "gay" relationship, a "lesbo" relationship or a boy/girl relationship.

But the funny thing is that, why must they need 100% time for their partners, but not themselves? Wierd? Scratching your head? Well, what im trying to say is that they focus more on relationship than any other things. Such that they neglect their study, work, and even themselves! How Powerful the word "love" means to them. As for me, i am having a relationship. Well, what i did was to distribute the time carefully. I empasize more on both our study work. Because after we went through this major exams, we could then sit back and relax and focus on our relationship.

I dont know how others think about themselves. But here's a piece of advice. Do Have Time for your love ones and yourselves. But Please, The world are now competing for jobs and for better life. Please do not neglect your studies and work. Its a living hell "out there".

Though i may be like a "nagger" and as ussual, people will think im good or a big ego, i am still working on my life and are improving myself for the better. Everyone needs time. Its only that how they manage the time carefully because time doesnt wait for us.

Hot hot hot!

Monday, May 29, 2006 @ 7:29 PM

Im suntanning. Cool? Think twice.

Mt o lvl was ok for me. I hope i get a B3 or A2 for it as i really did the questions carefully.
After exam, me, shahril and faiza went to safra to update our passport. We reached there at around 1 pm. The place opens at 2 pm. So we waited there. The weather was scorching hot!

I perspired alot.

After updating passport, went back home and went for soccer training.
My boots played well. Or did i played well? either ways. Haha.

Soon after, met up with dear and went home.

Here i am, worn out but still hyper.
Turra!

Tmr still had to go for school for normal lessons.
Shit it. Shit you. Shit Me.

*love you*

Sunday, May 28, 2006 @ 10:24 PM

So how? its out of my wish list!

I bought my new boots today.

Im focusing on tommorrow's O lvl Paper

Good Luck For Those who taking O's This year!

Focus More On Studies!

I miss my dear baby.

Starvation.

Saturday, May 27, 2006 @ 8:22 PM

Ok this sucks. Especially the hand showing off the middle finger. Guess what? That hand belongs to James.

I woke up today feeling hungry. I waited my parents to come back home for about 5 hours. From morning till noon, i was like a sleeping beast. My stomach started to growl at around 2. And my house seems to be a deserted place. No food at all. I have no energy to cook. Starving. So, i slept and eat my way up in dreamland.

I woke up, feeling hungry, again! and saw my parents came home. Guess what? They ate outside, and didnt bought food for me. I was there to be blamed at, because i didnt call them. Haha.

And my 1st bite of the day was at 4 pm. Cool. That was only 3 balls of MnMs. And an hour later, i bite on 2 big pieces of curry puffs. Yeehaw!

I still cant believe im seating for O lvls. I used to be thinking i didn make it through here. But, Yes I did!. Im gonna do my best!

Untittled

@ 4:03 PM

My hand does look like a stick.

I just cant get it into my mind about this friend of mine. Why is that so? Its because that i had known this person for 4 years. This person was once an idiot faggot, a nerdy geek and a bloody balless creature. I once thought that i am abit "matching" with his side. So i decided to be a friend to him.

4 Years had passed, he grew into a responsible and hardworking person. We shared our stories and became best friends. To me, that person was a great one who could listen to my problems and also share solutions with each other. That person had alot of relationship problems. I still helped and gave encouragements to succeed in his relationship. I thought he was a very great guy to me. But as time passes by, i observed his new attitude. His new personality. I found out he got into a relationship. He must be proud of himself. But I couldnt accept that he is now changed in person.

He used to be corky, used to be togather with me. But now, emphasize more on his relationship. But that dose not conclude anything. What worries me is that, his studies are now declining. Hes attitude change. He doesnot go for prayers. He does not go to school He does not do his work properly. He is now obsessed, infact, really obessed with his relationship, money, and erotic stuff. He was soo screwed up. I didnt know that his own girl could say his friends are bad. Which may include me and others who tried their best to pilot him to the right way. We are not discriminating or humiliate each other, but please, as friends, we maybe bad, but that does not mean that we are taking control of him. We also asked him to go for prayers, do his school work, go for excersise and also did his own school work.

We gave him the choice, he chose them. So why must you said that we are bad?

I dont understand. To that person, if you are reading this, Please, try to focus on your future more to this relationship. What some told you to do, may be right and may be wrong. Do choose your path wisely.

Choices has its own consequences.

Me, as a friend, are trying to wake you up to the reality. If you dont wish to listen to us, its ok, therefore, i should bid farewell to you and wish you the best of luck in your sailing trip across the stormy sea.

Pity to said that, but its for the better.

Haha

Friday, May 26, 2006 @ 11:04 PM

Trouble shooting stars. My School shoes. Its imperfect

Today had spring cleaning in the school. Every class worked togather to clean their classes. My class was dusty. Old ragged and rusty class. Haha. Well, we almost gave it a sparkle and dust free classroom. After school, went to prayers. After prayers, i paid farhan 5 dollars for him to transport some of my books back to my home while i went to TM pizzahut and celebrate faiza's bd. After eating there also treat it as lunch, we went to take neos. Soon after the photo taking, we took bus no.69 to go home. Me and ril alight 1st and went to padang taik where my team are having a small match between the sec 2e class. When we reached there, we looked as if they are tired. I rolled up my long pants and changed into my t-shirt and played in. Score a goal after 2 mins or so. And soon ,ril scored as well. Total score is 15-5. Cool? yeah! haha.

Went back home and rest. Ril went to my house to wait for his dad to reach school or the teachers and parents meeting event. Soon after we got our report book, I got 8th in class position and 28 in lvl position. Cool? yeah rite. Dear didnt do that well. But its ok dear, you must not give up kay, i will support you kay dear! mUacKs! Strive for the best! And wanna wish congrats to those who did pretty well but FAIL in mid year. Anyway, alot of us fail. So itss a lesson for us. Dont stop giving up yeah!

Ok im dead. Im listening to muse...aaaww...im in lala land. Dear said im hao lian. Wth. Hehe.

dudes

Thursday, May 25, 2006 @ 9:17 PM

Bunch of gay dudes. I look more to a fish than gurlish.

Ok ok...today was M day. Thank to Mr feraj. He called M day because its Movie Day. Haha-Aha. Watched I not stupid 2 during physics. Watched Narnia During English and Monster inc during SS. Cool? Yeah rite. Total class strength for today was 15. Cool. We could make a soccer team and 3 pom pom girls with 1 water boy. The manager? Our form teacher, Mr feraj. Haha!
My knee still hurts. My ankle are recovering. And i just stepped a piece of mini glass on my toe.
Cool? Soo much injuries for this week.
Im cute. I know that. Hehe.

Suck

Wednesday, May 24, 2006 @ 8:43 PM

Who mudered him? Own Up!

Injured myself from an unfair soccer match.
My right knee twisted.
My left ankle sprained.
Great!

School was boring.
The whole day didnt study a single subject. Except for math.

Tmr, i cant attend PE lesson due to badly injured knee.
I want to save up my money to buy a new pair of boots.

This Friday was an horror day for me. Taking report book with parents in the evening.

Im sick of people who really get easily influenced by their friends and hence, forget about their own soccer team.

Tuesday, May 23, 2006 @ 7:19 PM

My deeply wounded hand.

Its funny to see that after mid year, alot of my classmates did not turn up for school. One of them who had not turned up fo school is Ain. Two consecutive weeks had passed and i didnt see her at all. Hish. What happen? I dont know. Well, today was a day of total boredom. Basically, during geo and social studies period, we didnt do anything. Well for what reason, during geo, ms Tan didnt turned up. As for ss, we did correction on sbq. But since then, i didnt do it because i passed! haha. Ok ok. stop bragging too much.

Well, we did Dnt corrections. And i was soo freaking careless to alot of questions! I knew it. When i am excited over quetions i know how to do, i will end up making careless mistakes and hence, LOST MARKS. After Dnt period, we went for our mt lesson. Well, Astria, you really did a good job in your compo yeah! Two Thumbs Up. "up yours" haha. Ok ok cut it off Farhan.

After recess, its chemistry. Well well, as per normal, me and fareez will seat one corner and do our usual routine, which is, talk erotic stuff. Oh my god. Haha. We were bored okay. Atleast talk erotic, better than DO erotic. Get what i mean? ok. During the chem lesson, i was disturbing Diyana. She admire this friend of mine. As he was walking pass our class, i tend to shout his name. I tried to went out of the class room, but Diyana grabbed my shirt and pulled me in. As wh was pulling, i was struggeling and suddenly my hand was hoocked by a metal plated object that stuck on the wooden door. Guess what? It eventually slashed my hand and tada, a bleeding wound. Diyana was excited about it. Dont ask me why. =_+

During English, the 5ns combined class and watched movie while me, and some others sat in our class to have a peace time. After english was Math. Mr feraj was in a good mood. All his crappy stuff came up and we laughed like nobody business. Ha-ha-ha followed by cough.

After school, went to the canteen and had lunch with Farhan I and Ariff. After that, walked straight home and relax.

Tomorrow, i will be lending my MMC to jas. And someone from sec one, added me in msn. oh my god!

Disspointing stories.

Monday, May 22, 2006 @ 7:46 PM

Is that me? looks like a girl though. Ha-ha-ha, followed by a non-stop cough.

Today marks my 1 week of dissappointments. As you could see. I failed my Dnt Mid Year. Congrats Farhan. But as long as i get the total score after adding up my folio marks, i got 57. Congrats Farhan. My folio is about 77 marks. Congrats Farhan. and my dnt MYE was about 45. Congrats Farhan. I found out that i flung my english, by getting an e8, that is 44. Congrats Farhan. And I passed 3 for midyear, all boder line. Congrats Farhan.

Fareez lost his mp3. I lost my mind. Congrats Farhan.

Today, 1st thing in the morning, Dnt students from 5n2 was called upon to assist the dnt teachers regarding the "grand prix 2006" event. We became the time keepers. The race between each class was exciting. Like an extravaganza. Haha. Group of girls asked eric who am i and which class i came from. Guess what? He did tell them those top secret information. But Sorry. Im attached to my blur queen! Bluek! Congrats Farhan.

Junyuan Superstar was a little off the road as the panel of judges are mostly a "non-musician" kind of people. I couldnt understand, why they hold such events when they could really put up a great event such as sportsday or another cross-country, i guess.*grins*

Some personal notes to take note. What the hell was that for? Notes to take note? let me re-check.

Ok. Some points to take note.
- Miss Tan Hui Lin asked me to get an A1 for geo so that she could "tompang" me to anywhere.
-I should memorise more about dnt and math formulae.
-Should change my personalities to a better one because someone out there are suffering.
- I should speak,write and listen to good english.
-I pressed my panic button.

Well, all these stuff i mentioned should be done by my ownself. It can only be done if i put my heart and soul on it. But am i sure i could do it?
Actions speaks louder than words. So Can i? Congrats Farhan.

To that someone who think he or she was greater than me, may i announce to you that you are such a pittyful one. A great ass licker i guess. Congrats Farhan.

Anyone wants to hit the gym this week?

Dear, hope that you are proud of yourself because you stuck beside me just to comfort and love me. I love you. Congrats Farhan.

While typing this entry, i am stuck beside a big ass, that belongs to my brother. He's changing his undies beside me. God Damn it. Ok turra!

Who wants to follow me to update my old ragged passport?

Bucks

Sunday, May 21, 2006 @ 7:44 PM

Another 60 bucks earned today after working as dish washer at bedok wedding ceremony.Found out my cuppy frend attached already. Congrats. Hope you and that person be togather for as long as ever yar. Went back home, feeling cold. Im too numbed to feel anything. My right hamstring starts to give stinging pain due to over work during x-country, yesterday. I cant wait to get dnt results on monday, that is tmr. I think i did badly. Because alot of the ones who took dnt, did badly for mye. So im prepared for the worst.

My hand bleeds profusely. The wound seems to be tearing apart. I cant feel anything. But what i know is that, i use my heart to feel the truth, and to feel you.Im sorry for yesterday's behavior. I am at my high temperature. I am a puffer fish. I could not be evoke. Eventhough someone i care tried to touch me, my spikes will still be eject out to hurt them. I cant control it. I simply cant. Forgive me my love.

surprise?

Saturday, May 20, 2006 @ 8:43 PM

You planned a surprise for me? well. Keep it for a better day then. I have numbed myself too much. So dont bother asking me. Because those feelings are caged in my heart. And i seem to lost the key. I know you tried your best to comfort me. It have been a month or so that we are still togather. Despite those bittersweetness we had, i am sure we could persevere and endure it. I know you still love me. I am just being myself. Therefore good bye. I end this letter sealed with a kiss and a drop of tear.

X-country.

@ 1:43 PM

Woke up in the morning. Went alone for x-country with min, bas. The race was great. I did my best for my class. I tried to get top 30. But i cant. At around themark of 4.0 km, my feet starts to feel the blisters. I was panting for breath. I nearly got my anger on some stupid malay and chinese lowest sec girls. I bumped onto 2 groups of them. The 1st was at a mark of 1.km plus. They were walking in straight horizontal rows which nearly block the whole entire running track. Wat the fuck. I tried to signal them from behind. But they seems to be DEAF! So i literally scolded them "move it bitch" and eventually they move. Oh My God. The second one was at the 2.0 km plus. Again. The same thing. I said that word once, they din move. I nearly wanted to stop and throw those stones at their head. Why must they make people's life miserable? Crazy sia junyuan students. Haiyo. So...I took my pace a little faster. Damnit. Naufal beat me. He was far away from me. And when i reached the ending point, got a blank card. Damn. And naufal said he was in 33 or 32 position or so. That means i am at the 34 to 35 position. Damnit! Urgh! Why the school didnt make the race like last time they had? had a top 40 runners. Stupid sia. My batch always are the swey one. Haiyo.

And so, it was prize presentation. The 5 ns did quite a good job despite alot of us were at a top 100 position. That cool already. And for the Interclass challenge. My class, 5n2 got the 3rd position as alot of us ran and we got points for it as 5n1 didnt won as alot of their class members didnt run. What a waste issint? After the event, me, min,bas and dear went to safra.
I wanted to update my passport for the june trip to mt ophir. When we reahed there, the place was still close. It opens at 1 pm. Damnit it. It was only 11 am or so.
So we went home.

At home. Tried to sleep. But it seems that i couldnt sleep that well! My room door open and close every second. Damnit. And stupid bloody house viewer! Wanna come view my house, GO VIEW IN THE NIGHT TIME LAR! Haiyo...In the middle of the day you view for what. To top up the frustration, IF YOUR VIEWING SOMEONE'S ROOM, AND YOU SEE SOMEONE IS SLEEPING, PLEASE TALK SOFTLY! OR BETTER, SHUT THE FUCK UP! haiyo...
Stress sia...view my house also, didnt buy for what. My house now selling at the price of a 4a room flat. My house is a 5 room flat. Cmon. No need bargain! its 250 K already! What to bargain for. YOu want free arh? Go sell you asshole 1st lah. Haiyo!

Im irritated. Problems kept on smashing and topping me up. Some came crashing on me indirectly. Haiz.

And someone is jealous. Its good to voice up your oppinion. Its good to be selfish for yourself and for your own good.

Wishes upon a dead star that i would die painless and instant.

Stupid Game. But Boredom killer.

Friday, May 19, 2006 @ 9:46 PM

INSTRUCTIONS:
1) The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different qualities of his/her perfect lover.
2) Mention the gender of his/her perfect lover
3) Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
4) If u are tagged the 2nd time, NO NEED TO DO IT AGAIN.
5) Have fun doing it.

1:understanding
2:loving
3:caring
4:A clean heart to love
5:Comes up with ideas to entertain
6:Love for who i am
7:Aprriciate good things i've made to
8:honest

2-> Female

3->Ril,shraff,min,iza,nazurah,basirah,diyana, angie

So long and good night

crazy

@ 8:13 PM

My bro...caught red handed. Personal humiliation. Ain't he cute?

Waiting for dear to online. I cant seem to contact her. My hp farking made problems.

Fark that hp. Haiz.

Farhan I bought the same perfume as me. Haiyoz. Now i got 2 clone. Damnit. No originality. Gonna buy myself other type. Shit.

Tmrs cross country. Im running. Try to win a medal.

I dont noe if dear gonna go with me.

Till here. Good bye fuckers.

Mid year results.

Thursday, May 18, 2006 @ 9:32 PM

I did badly for mid year. Such that i passed borderline for some sybjects. And failed badly for MATH! aargh

heres the specs.

Math-20/100
Phy- (i know i failed it but i forgot the marks. I passed practical paper for sure.)
Chem-(not informed yet)
SS- 24/50 (highest in class. Cool? yeh rite. Even Ariff failed. Im highest from the failures)
Geo- 32/50 ( diyana beat me. She got 43.5 for it. Envy her. *stare in her eyes* *grins*)
Mt- 54-57/100( Nonsense. Am i malay or hindu or chinese? Own language cannot pass well.)
Dnt- (not informed yet.)
English 50/100 (JUST PASSED? OH MY GOD!?)

Well thats all for now. I have no mood. Bleahs!

Retail Therapy

Tuesday, May 16, 2006 @ 10:28 PM

Today went out with dear. Shop for shirt and my soccer socks. Met up with Auntie Peiwen and Mama. They went to bugis. We headed to TM and then to Penin. Bought my socks and walked to bugis. I soon got the shirt i wanted. Went back to TM. After buying the shirt. Again went back to ochard. After a while, went to cityhall, went to esplanade. Sat at the roof top for 3 hours, went back home at around 9 pm.

Its soo funny because when we are at mrt, reaching tampines, i suddenly realise...since it was still early, i then wanna go orchard. Wat the hell. So crazy. haha.

Ok, i burnt my pocket hole badly. I left with only 16 dollars for tmr's movie. We either watch voice or M3 or Poisideon.

Till here. Good Bye.

Love My dear alot.

Sunset From the rooftop

Shopping spree

Monday, May 15, 2006 @ 8:08 PM

Ok. Today Finished my mid year.

Finally! Its over and im loving it.

Its now left with prelims and O lvl.

God these things are killing me.

"S-o-S someone help me...blar blar blar"

haha taken fron jasmine's blog.

okok.

After exams, thought of walking dear home. Ive been missing her badly for 5 days straight.

But it seems my schedule are destroyed non other by Mr Loh Chee Teng.

Before paper ends, wrote something on the board.

He asked the DnT students to meet him up at the workshop.

This guy, always have his own evil way of torturing.

And guess what. He asked us to clean the whole workshop and PAINT the wooden benches.

Omg. We were unprepared. And our mind are more likely in a holiday mood or resting mood.

Haiyo. So stayed back untill 11 am just to do those.

My hands, shoes are all covered with orange paint splattered around it.

Went back home, Rest and went for soccer. Dear went shopping with her bestie.

Asked her to survuey the prices thats in my shopping list for tmr.

Hope i could get what i wanted by tmr.

i got Bucks man..BUCKS! haha...

Ok farhan stop bragging. Idiot. My injured ankles are in good shape.

My shoulder are aching due to physical activities.

My soccer boots are dieing soon.

Cut my hair wrongly. Now its like shaved at the side. Stupid me.

Does anyone watched the new orean movie called "voice"?

If you do, Please please tell me if its good or not.

Just wanna make my money worth watching it.

Ok Turra!!! nyahaha!

Shopping spree

@ 8:08 PM

Ok. Today Finished my mid year.

Finally! Its over and im loving it.

Its now left with prelims and O lvl.

God these things are killing me.

"S-o-S someone help me...blar blar blar"

haha taken fron jasmine's blog.

okok.

After exams, thought of walking dear home. Ive been missing her badly for 5 days straight.

But it seems my schedule are destroyed non other by Mr Loh Chee Teng.

Before paper ends, wrote something on the board.

He asked the DnT students to meet him up at the workshop.

This guy, always have his own evil way of torturing.

And guess what. He asked us to clean the whole workshop and PAINT the wooden benches.

Omg. We were unprepared. And our mind are more likely in a holiday mood or resting mood.

Haiyo. So stayed back untill 11 am just to do those.

My hands, shoes are all covered with orange paint splattered around it.

Went back home, Rest and went for soccer. Dear went shopping with her bestie.

Asked her to survuey the prices thats in my shopping list for tmr.

Hope i could get what i wanted by tmr.

i got Bucks man..BUCKS! haha...

Ok farhan stop bragging. Idiot. My injured ankles are in good shape.

My shoulder are aching due to physical activities.

My soccer boots are dieing soon.

Cut my hair wrongly. Now its like shaved at the side. Stupid me.

Does anyone watched the new orean movie called "voice"?

If you do, Please please tell me if its good or not.

Just wanna make my money worth watching it.

Ok Turra!!! nyahaha!

Tribute to love and rock.

Sunday, May 14, 2006 @ 2:12 PM

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing

Watch you smile while you are sleeping

While you're far away dreaming

I could spend my life in this sweet surrender

I could stay lost in this moment forever

Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Don't want to close my eyes

I don't want to fall asleep

Cause I'd miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating

And I'm wondering what you're dreaming

Wondering if it's me you're seeing

Then I kiss your eyes

And thank God we're together

I just want to stay with you in this moment forever

Forever and ever

Don't want to close my eyes

I don't want to fall asleep

Cause I'd miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

I don't want to miss one smile

I don't want to miss one kiss

I just want to be with you

Right here with you, just like this

I just want to hold you close

Feel your heart so close to mine

And just stay here in this moment

For all the rest of time

Don't want to close my eyes

I don't want to fall asleep

Cause I'd miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

Don't want to close my eyes

I don't want to fall asleep

I don't want to miss a thing

WishList

Friday, May 12, 2006 @ 8:39 PM

Wish List

Levi's Long Sleeve

Nike MVIII $114

Adidas F-30 $144

Bought this Stupid ball already. Haha. $26

Cheapo-nana

The soccer boots, Which to buy? I dunnoe.

Ok im releasing my stress...Haha

Tadaa

Thursday, May 11, 2006 @ 10:54 PM

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry.
You are a social person who likes to talk and meet others.
You are diplomatic, objective, and live in the present.
You are not very reserved, impatient, self-confident and fond of action.
You like standing out and making sure that people know your mind.

Sprained ankle, sprained wrist.
This is all ive got.

Dead

@ 7:28 PM

I stared blankly in the dark.
My eyes are filled with tears.
My soul coud not rest in peace.
All i could think of, are my never ending fears.

Bruised And Battered.
Scared and Petrified.
I tried to stand up.
And Prepare To fight.

All the love I get.
Was a miracle to me.
As i asked myself.
What am i here to be?

She showered me Love.
I am blessed with those.
All she could think of.
Am I here to scare her to froze?

Its my attitude.
I hope i could change it.
But what im dissapointed with.
Is that i couldnt do it.

Family starts with love.
Those amount you could not find,
by just counting the stars above.

Why am i born?
and was thrown with full of rats?
Dreams that i wanted,
Are always torn.

Confused and I'm feeling down.
And I just wanna be alone.
I'm pissed cause you came around.
Why don't you just go home.
Cause you channel all your pain.
And I can't help you fix yourself.
You're making me insane.

Sometimes, you realised that you are lucky that you are here.
But sometimes. You just wanna end your life.

I was nearly hit by bus.
I was nearly following suicidal thoughts.
I was nearly to loose you just like that.

Slap my face. Punch me. Kick me in the guts.
And spit on me if it bothers you.
Fuck Off and get a life Bitches and Faggots.

Curious.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006 @ 10:21 PM

I wrote a solemn letter.

I ended up with a fullstop.

Signed with my crimson blood.

A name that will never be forgotten.

Am i that bad to you?

Or am i just so sick in my mind?

I know im not that good.

But Why Must you Target me?

You walked off just like that.

Thank You.

R.I.P

@ 11:59 AM

He's Dead. Go away!

Great!

Saturday, May 06, 2006 @ 9:35 PM

Practical exam on wednesday was an ok one for me. Chemistry prac wise, i hope for the best. Physics prac wise, i should pass.

Thursday, I didnt know how the hell i can pull one pull up wherelese i could usually pull more than 2. Haiz.

Friday had 2 exams. Chem and SS. SS wise, i could do. Chem, Fark off. But i did every questions. Hope i get a 27 and above marks for it. Before going to school, quarreled with dad. All because of me didnt teach my sister. Well my sister, for your info are a stubborn rock head. Eventhough i teach her, she will still insist shes the right one. Well, i gave up teaching her that time because i dun wanna loos my temper on her. Soon when i did that, my father came into the picture and nag at me. Ok...i kept quiet. Im stressed! But soon after, i cant stand it. So i stood up for myself. I told him im at fault. Wow,. didnt know i sparked the fire! He bloodily shoot machinegun at me. So, i walked out of the house and went to school. My emotions are down.

My moral are down. My immune system are down. What else are down? My nerve system? well..yeah sort off. It seems that i cant even feel the pain in my brain. How great can that be right? Studied 5 hours for today.

Jasmine's parents treated me dinner. So thankfull of them. Looks like other families are happy...but mine. It seems im the one who are targeted. Am i that useless? I wonder.
Yes you said that motivational course are useless to me. Cmon. You didnt see it and you still could judge it. how great. I didnt say you are low educated. Cmon. Atleast you are experienced enough as a 40 year old man. A father who give education to your own son. So dont FaRking say that!! You start smoking again. Fark that attitude. I dun like it. Cmon..u wanna die faster issit!
Bloody cigaratte. I dont fancy smoking afterall. Make your bloody mind more haywire. EEEURGH!

Now im sick. Sick of this live. Sick of you. Sick of everything happening to me. I tried to stand up. Badly bruised.

Temp 37.5 degrees. Symptoms of sickness: Flue. Dry lips. Red burning eyes. Sorethroat.

I am dead. I use magic to type this out. Sayonara.

1st mnth anniversary

Tuesday, May 02, 2006 @ 8:54 PM

Today mark our 1st mnth anniversary. Love my dear alot! Hope our relationship last long. Muah muah!

Today had Mid year malay oral. Did farely well. My reading and convo good. Only some part of convo, i side tracked alittle bit. Overall, i think i can pass. My eyes are still sore red. Bloody Chlorine. My face skin are peeling off due to dryness caused by swimming.

Tmrs my mid year science practical. Can go school at 10++ am. Nice. Wish me luck people!

Anniversary

Monday, May 01, 2006 @ 8:53 PM

Stylo Milo At Suntec City

Dear's ice cream and mine. Mudslide and cookie dough, Chocolate brownie and cherry choco.

Im getting darker! Damn swimming pool which made me into a cococrunch!

Im addicted To Bens And Jerry. Damnit. Lol