Something that would make it so that nothing mattered
All would be clear then
But I guess I'll have to settle for a few brief moments
And watch it all dissolve into a single second
And try to write it down into a perfect sonnet
or one foolish line
'Cause that's all that you'll get so you'll have to accept
You are here then you're gone
But I believe that lovers should be tied together and
Thrown into the ocean in the worst of weatherand left there to drown
Left there to drown in their innocence
But as for me I'm coming to the final chapter
I read all of the pages and there is still no answer
Only all that was before I know must soon come after
That is the only way it can be
So I stand in the sun
And I breathe with my lungs
Trying to spare me the weight of the truth
Saying everything you've ever seen was just a mirror
And you've spent your whole life sweating in an endless fever
And now you are laying in a bathtub full of freezing water
Wishing you were a ghost
But once you knew a girl and you named her
LoverAnd danced with her in kitchens through the greenest summer
But autumn came, She disappeared
You can't remember where she said she was going to
But you know that she's gone 'cause she left you a song
That you don't want to sing
We're singing
I believe that lovers should be chained together
And thrown into a fire with their songs and letters
And left there to burn
Left there to burn in their arrogance
But as for me I'm coming to my final failure
I've killed myself with changes trying to make things better
But I ended up becoming something other than what I had planned to be
Now I believe that lovers should be draped in flowers
And layed entwined together on a bed of clover
And left there to sleepLeft there to dream of their happiness
Tuesday, December 20, 2005 @ 8:37 PM
Today was indeed a dead day for me....
In the morning, woke up..and then was waiting for muhaimin to come under my block to give him my yellow form for submission...
before that, yesterday nite, told ma parents dat i pass and all stuff...and i would like to continue to study for sec 5 next year...the minit i told dem that, their face went a lil crooked...as if sumthing bad was gonna happen...wtf sia..my dad said i wanna go poly cos i wanna wear my own shirt to that skl? walao...so petathic...and my mother..she said.."your taking another loop to go ite ah?" wat the hell she have doubts that i will not make it in the Os and hence going back to ite which waste one year of my time...k fine..
I told them i got 2nd higest for dnt subject..and all they reply with a particular expression "oh..ok.." haiz...ok nvm...i am being resonable..
So..when i gave the yellow form stating that i wana go to sec 5, they ask each other to sign...wtf.. wats wrong with them huh..i've been thinking for the whole nite..
So the next day, which is today, they still din sign the paper..and finally, i gave them a piece of my mind..and my mother signed it...so...i think..dats all..no support will be given... During the day, asked them if i could buy sumthing...they din even bother to look at me...din even reply....wat wrong did i do...ok...i noe lah i am not a bright child...but atleast give some support ah..
haiz...muhaimin are going to celebrate with his family tmr and his mom are gonna buy him an mp3...good sia...some other frends, their parents gave them supports...haiz..really sadden me..
I think i did fairly well...i shuld be proud...but the satisfaction of joyness i get...i think i dun have any of it..i think i am born to study? to fame them up? with my brains? nah..stupid predictions...
Well till here...wanna call sumone..talk to her is better than talking to my own parents...nvm...its ok mom and dad...i wun do any harm..trust me..
Class Photo 2005
@ 5:58 PM
FORMAL
INFORMAL
Results...doomsday machine!
Monday, December 19, 2005 @ 9:59 PM
Okay okay...today is Result day! oh my god...Damn nervous...my head was full of tsunami and volcanic eruptions..soo very the crazy!
Ok its like around 8 in the morning...chat with all the N lvl takers..wishing them good luck and all...some gave me their best wishes...appriciate and need those...thanks arh guys...and chat with hafiz...hes damn nervous..same feeling as me...haha...horror suspense life threat!
Ok...around 12 like dat, khai nyet called me..asking me if he could go to my house to dye his hais black...walao..lol...so around 1 pm, he reached ma house..dyed his hair...before that..he look like a lion sia...damn blonde...walao...so after dat, went to meet up with members at the block just infront of the skl main gate. Went in, the guard din say bout ma hair...phew...so around 2 like dat, we went up the hall...its getting tense...all the face cramp sia...haha..like controlling the sheit not to pop out...walao..dat include me lar..ahah!
So..ms queck briefed us about the percentage..blar blar tada....our skl NA did good...but last year was better than us lah...i saw 12 din make it...omg...12 sia...damn..one of the name must be me...
So..i tend to feel like shitting when im too nervous...
Results time!
And i could see some of them make it, some dun...i counted those who din make it...so far 8 already...den its my turn...signed the stupid form, and wait for my teacher to give my slip..
So, she got ma slip, and all my frends was crowding me...blood pressure went up and down...and suddenly, she said.."wow farhan...your SAFE!"...i was like...wat the fark....i asked her..."cher..u sure u got the correct name anot? i Farhan Suhaimi...not Farhan Ismail....den she showed me the name...wah kao! i pass sia! slaped my face 2 times...den i jumped out..walao...i checked my grades....total point..10...alamak...nvm...she said..."wow...u got 2 for dnt...but i think vincent yew won u..." WALAU! HE got 1st...i got 2nd! 2nd in dnt...Aiyo...nvm...but thank god..i pass...Alhamdulillah!
But then...eventhough i passed, some of my mates din make it...haiz...no more jokers when we are stressed up in class, no more ideas to share in dnt...haiz...like dis..life like boring lar...aper da
So after results, when to TM with ma,fa,da,di,ril,min,shraff,farhan ismail...ate at LJS...ate my combo meal number Tuuh..(two)...den went off, jalan2 here and there...see the stupid scuba diver at TM trying to make a record of staying underwater for 200+ hrs.....alah..i think he cant survive dat...in the matter of fact that when people are asleep which is during nite time..he will most probably come out and eat, sheit and wat ever he do lah...haha! crazy prediction i have...lol...
Orite..So, after going there, walked back home...and tada..here i am..planning to buy ps2 or xbox...see 1st...later this weekend ask my dad buy...any of u guys noe where to get ps2 modified...it seems that alot of the shops selling those console are being raided by police...haiyo...as if they are selling drugs or pornos...wat the fark...ok...currently eating lovely brownies...nice...
And to those who din make it to sec 5, i wish u all the best ah...continue ur studies..dun give up... sure can achieve ur goals...especially to my members...miss you guys sia...haiz..ok bye
Vehicle Specs
Friday, December 09, 2005 @ 11:58 AM
Heres are some phrases invented by me and my frend, james...evo, skyline,mazda freaks!
Me:Especially for girls..heres one...Your Bike is like your guy..you have to give all the items they need to give u a pleasureable ride...
James:cars are like girls. you never know what will happen if you try to move them to a higher level (gears)
James:cars are similiar to girls too. you need the cash, so as to make them feel good
Me:NOS is like hot girls with std...you wanna hit it...but u are not sure wats the consequences are...
zoom newzealand
Thursday, December 08, 2005 @ 10:36 PM
well well...just got home from changi airport to send my frend off to new zealand! YANA...Asal kau tak bawak aku skali!!! aaargh!
In the morning...all i did is...woke up, stretch,tidy my mess in the room...fart...den went to bath....after bathing, ate breakfast, and watch some animal planet show...and on da com... Check ma frendster...and check that sumone's profile, saw her testimonial...aww man...found out shes taken...damn man...i love her eyes man...haiz...december december...so many cobaan ah dis mnth...lucky my birthday is on february...
ok...after about 4 hours of seating infront of the comp, decided to send yana off at changi airport.. Met up withtira,ril,huda and farhan lostat the mrt bust stop place dili dong...haha! kk..after we reached at the terminal,met up with ma,da,reez
And soon...met up with yana... she treated us burger king...crap here and dere...i ate burger rendang..Heavy meal sia...lol...den saw this man...he had a nice clean shaved bald head...beautiful shaven...but dang...alot of us cant see..cos its tooo shiny man! love it! unique...STYLE!yeah bebeh!
ok..so...yana's off to her plane...asked her to buy me some wrist band or sumthing..ahah! damn..no shame farhan..no shame...and we set off to mrt station...
heres the disgusting moment of the day...
As the MRT stops, this indian guy are alighting...and so, just as the door opens, he quickly rush out as if his ass is on fire...well..for some reasonable thoughts...i think he might be late catching his flight...so we rushed in...to our horror....there's this some fart smell sucked by our nose soo deeply inside our sense of smell...omg...the smell...was damn powerfull! PEKAT! very the...aargh..like rotten egg sia...i think..worst than that..i ran out, went into the other cabin...again..the smell came...very heavy! very warm! walao wey! all of us were gasping for air...and so we settled down...the smell is still dere...damn lar..i suspected that indian guy sia..confirm one..cos he was the only one in the cabbin...on top of that..the stronggest smell is in that particular cabin...he migh have controlled his assholenot to fart and save it in the airplane...but i think he cant, and let it out go off like a blow to the candle...dats why i think he ran just as we rushed into the mrt cabin...damn man...
After we settled down, my stomach began to hurt...that fart smell really triggers my bowel system...now i wanna shit...wat the hell...dats why..FYI tira...i kept quiet...if not..i fart...ahaha!
K, after we reached at tampines MRT station, met up with CT...wah...after working also still looking good ah you...terpikat I...haha jk...k after that, went to TM, CS and ent home at around 9.30 pm...waited for the 291 bus at the interchange, like waiting for the sky to fall sia...damn long..which took around 30 mins to come...nabei...
Reached home at around 10.30, bath, and tada...here i am ah..crap with tira,and enduring these hurting pain in the stomach...felt like punching my own stomach sia... nvm...
K turra!!
Wednesday, December 07, 2005 @ 10:28 PM
Home team Formal..I look nerd sia...wat the hell
@ 10:24 PM
Home team Informal..
@ 10:23 PM
Away team FORMAL
@ 10:22 PM
away team jersey...Informal...I look gay man! oh! My! GOD!
@ 10:20 PM
aha,...my gay partner in my soccer team...yea bebeh! We are the side by side defender! dunnoe ah wat im saying..just read..
@ 10:18 PM
Chey wah...step captain...no no..im assistan Capitan...mind you CAPITAN
Farhan's ankle
@ 9:44 PM
Today...hmm..wat did i do ah? ok..1st thing in the morning...woke up around 7....woke by my mother's footstep when she wanna go to werk...i was sleeping in the living room..yeah..its cold..but nvm..cos my soul live in cold...yea bebeh!
No fantasy dream ah today...ahaha...i noe it happens when u least expected it...miss that gerl in my dream...dang..nvm...well.after i had a long bath...around 30 mins...the toilet can be so called a sauna to me...warm air...not my fart mind u...haha...warm shower...mmm..best! so..after shower, ate breakfast...my granny made us some roti john,..sedap siol..hingga menjilatkan kaki... after dat, on com..and tada...chat,chill,slack,crap and watsoever things u expect me to do ah...erm..GOOD things ah ehk..dun expect the other way round...
So at around 3 in the afternoon, got maself ready for soccer training...wah...the training a lil tiring..can bare it...nuthing much ah...took pics of the team...and during a mini match...sprained my ankle again! aargh...damn it...it happen when i run a small slope of the field..and there it goes...a twist of the right ankle..and tada! i sprained ma ankle..damn weak sia...I wanna ride..and this stupid ankle..well..its not stupid..i am the stupid one..but..nvm..but..because of this ankle..cant even cycle my bike...how great..just as i wanna learn something new in riding..there it goes..problems poped out like pop-ups in the internet...damn you! well damn it..not you guys huh...
And after the training, went back home at around 6.45 pm..bath, on com, upload pics...and blogging...crack world famous lame jokes with tira..haha..and listening music..dats all..damn..im waiting for her to accept my Friend request in frendsta man....tak sabar ni...when will she be online.Hmph
Ah for your info...there nuthing much i wanna say to ya guys...You guys rock my suardalam man! woohoo! ok im lamer den ever..and to the sista who commend bout ma blog..yeah..gua chaya sama lu babe...everyone have a heart ment to be broken...yea bebeh!
Lurp comes within the heart of the beholders... alamak...k before my hand get itchy to type more, i shuld end my story here for Now...
Orite...turra and also..forgot to tell you guys...when u guys playing sports, dun drink h2O + Ice lemon tea...the results...A pain in the stomach dat makes u fart damn longkang-ish smell...disgusting man...and i just got it now! gtg to toilet..!
A fantasia dream
Monday, December 05, 2005 @ 8:23 PM
hmm..today...nuhing much happen...cos i sprained my right ankle really badly...the spot got sprained almost every sports i play...week sia..it is now a lil purple...nvm that...so.. the whole day...ive been listening to sentimental songs..Din believe it? aha..
ok..why why? why i listening to such songs...hmm maybe its like the season of sentimental? Every mnth I felt this way..haha..i think u guys also experience this..maybe u just din realised it yeah
So..what is the cause for my mood swing here..well heres the story since last friday...till today...i mean last night..i dream about a same girl...damn shes like perfect to me...yeah..a perfect soulmate you guys could think about...and the happiness u guys could think about in the dream...its like im alive in that dream...as in i could feel my expressions..the excitement in the dream..so fantastic..and yet..to bad..its just dream..
Well i still remembered on friday night, i dreamt about this beautiful girl..she was like an angel..caring..and her character in that dream was some sort of my soulmate...we ate dinner..and all sorts of thing ah...just as i wanna wake up on saturday, i still remembered talking to her..telling her that i'll be meeting her at the beach...so...on saturday night...damn..i dream of her again..and really it was at the beach...its like continuing..and we like have a couple of hours there...having fun.you guys noe the romantic kinda scene at the beach...i hope u guys noe lah ah...den again..before waking up, we decided to meet up at some city scape place...So..on sunday night..again..dreamt about the same one..at the planned meeting place..
Dang...we had dinner and gone for movies...haiz..and the dream was like...i think im gonna miss it man...this blog here is where i can recap the dream...before i woke up on monday...found out she was crying..i din noe uh...it really sadden me..and i cant even remember her face...I realsied about this dream today...
haiz...beautiful dream...really cherish dat..
well i think dats all i could recap bout the dream...if u guys find it crap, by all means...but to me..its not..damn..why did i forgot her face man! urgh...i think its fate...haiz...really have a "missing" feelings now..cant describe it..hope im not get carried away by these stuff...
Ok dats all for now...gonna miss her man...k go..
Here's are one lyric for a malay song
Kerasnya jantungku mendengar namamu ketika perbualan orang kau ditunangkan dengan jejaka lain selain ku.. Tidak kah kau tahu ku masih menyayangi Dan masih memerlukan kasihmu tidakku lupa bila bersamamu tapi kini kau jauh.. meninggalkan aku... Oh lydia... kucinta padamu Oh lydia engkaulah kekasihku Oh lydia.. kembalilah sayangku seperti waktu dahulu..oh Apakah salahku... engkau buatku bergini inginku katakan apadaya diriku oh Oh tuhan kembalikan lah hatinya tak ingin aku derita kalau bergini selamanya tak ingin aku hidup di dunia...
